one more day!

Wednesday . 10th March 2010

The day is coming the day is coming!!! ONE MORE day! :) Just because of the exam, i had to visit the library more often, to study. Can't study in room, i will only end up sleeping or doing nothing productive. =S I enjoy being in the library alone, dunno why. Just a cell phone, my notes, my pencil case and a jacket, yes.

Spread the smiles~

I went around, telling my nervous classmates, "Don't worry don't be so tensed. SMILE!"

After my first paper on Monday, i was so bersemangat to go library to study after my paper ended at 1030am. If you met me that day you could see my eyes burning with spirit of enthusiasm. (Woah... =.=) Stayed there from 1130am-4pm. Broke my record! First time staying in library for soooooo long! And guess what, i read a lot of stuff that evening. ;) 3 books of FEMALE magazines, essays and some notes on Social Studies. :D Not bad leh? Hahahahaha! You know last few times i was so desperately finding ladies's magazines in the library which are in English but to no avail. Then on Monday my eyes were sharp enough to catch the ladies' magazines in a stack of Malay Magazines. Woot! I grabbed 'em and spent more than one hour reading them. :p That's how i spent my whole afternoon in the library. :)

In front of me.

behind...

See that? It's totally EMPTY! Well, i was the only student in the library that afternoon.

Yesterday, i wanted to continue the same thing i did the day before. However, i gave up. I only stayed there from 1230-230pm. Managed to draw a cute Phoenix from The Worn Path and of course making the notes. I love the Phoenix i drew wor!!! I will scan it and upload it when i have time after exam. Erm, and a sudden blue mood struck me so didn't really manage to study well. Was studying well then suddenly a very familiar feeling engulfed me. :( Closed the books, kept my things, left the library, entered my room, sat on my bed, played guitar, lied on bed, covered myself in blanket, listened to songs, buried my head in my pillow, kept the guitar, took my shower and got ready for CF. It was almost 7pm so i carried the guitar and went to cafe to meet Johnny but later joined Jarul and Zyarfan watching a thrilling movie, so scary man! We watched a clip of Abraham's story in in CF. again. That story just keeps appearing when it shouldn't appear. :( But i know, it appeared because God wants to remind me that again.

Johnny (a gentleman who spoke like a pastor last night, laughed for no reason), with the guitar, ready for a battle. That's not the way you carry guitar lah!

You know what, when i am sad, there will only be two things i will do. Call someone or go to church. First is call someone. I called mom yesterday, just to hear her voice, not wanting to utter a word the feeling that overwhelmed me at that moment. Wanted to talk to Gracie to ask her how was her exam, but she had not reached home. The other thing is go to church, or simply means getting myself closer to people who believe God, and to involve myself in His work. Because through these people or the work He assigned me to do, He speaks to me. (Sometimes you can't really get the answer and response from your prayer. Just be sure that He will always answer. It's just a matter of time 'when', and also how He answers you.)

I always believe that the more you are down, the more you need to come closer to Him. Let Him place his nail-scared hand on your wound, eliminate the pain and heal you. You need to get out from the pool of sadness and embrace in His love. When you are sad, you need to let Him talk to you. God whispers and the world is too loud. By getting closer to Him, i could hear Him speak to me. :)

Today i had English Studies paper. Literature, basically. Woke up early to do the final reading of some of the notes i made. Then suddenly...

"Lecturer wants to see you now. At the gym."
*rolled eyes* What again?? RIGHT NOW? I tried to call the head of the unit to go but he didn't answer the phone. X( The president said it's quite urgent so packed my notes and went. Power-walked there, the lecturer said, "Oh it's okay, you are having test later right? Go first." I was like WHATTTTT? Really wasted my time wor! And i was in charge of banner, why would she ask me to settle the budget stuff. =.=! And then, when i finally sat down and wanted to read through my notes, crumbs! I didn't bring my notes on Phoenix. Sigh.

And guess whaaaaaat? "The Worn Path" was out today in the paper! "The Third and Final Continent", "A Unicorn in the Garden"!!! And also "I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings"!! "Hawk Roosting"!!! Didn't really answer well enough but i'm satisfied. The only part i am pretty upset with is the structured part where we were asked to identify the tones. Normally i don't have problem with this, but this morning the words just couldn't get out of my head no matter how hard i squeeze it out. :(

Anyways, one last paper to go. The hardest! Social Studies. :( Lotsa memorizing to be done. Quotations, years, statistics, facts, definitions, examples... T.T Hmm, i am contemplating whether to study now and rest earlier tonight or to take a nap now and study tonight after i have recharged. See how it goes later, if really tired then i will grab a nap first.

The days without you,
are hard to past.
Whenever i think of the moments i spent with you,
it makes me miss you even more.
Please come back to me,
as soon as you can.
For you brightened my life,
simply just being here with me.

I miss my phone terribly!!!! :'(