Holiday #11

天父啊！你名何其美，你荣耀彰显于天，
当我看你手所造的天，还有月亮和星宿。
我就说主我算什么，你竟顾念我，
叫我比天使微小一点，又赐我尊贵
荣耀为冠冕，派我掌管你所造的万物。

天父啊！你名何其美，你慈爱溢满天地，
当我看你手所造的地，还有花草和万兽。
我就说主我算什么，你竟顾念我，
我能为你做什么事，教我如何来，
回报你大爱，主啊，你名何其美在全地。

美丽又尊贵的大爱

看到如此绽炫美丽的夕阳，我看到这创造者的大能，恩惠和爱。不禁使这首优美的诗歌（取自大卫王的诗篇）在我脑海中，心怀中荡漾。

天父上帝的爱。。。如此美丽！如此尊贵！

我们也应该用一生来回报主的深厚大爱。

我们的天父上帝时时刻刻顾念我们，真的真的很爱我们。


P/s: 请包涵我这已 “生锈” 的中文。

Holiday #10

O Lord,
Thank You for Your love that keeps us going on through difficult moments in life.
we know that You see and You hear.
we cast all our anxieties on You.
we put all these, and everyone, every hearts in Your mighty hands
and we know, we believe You have Your own time.
Meanwhile, Lord please look after us,
pour Your abundant grace on us,
grant us strength and keep us going,
no matter how treacherous the journey is
no matter how faint the hope seems to be
we shall not grow weary.
Our strength comes from You;
our hope is found in You.
Lord, remind us, constantly remind us that You are always here,
watching, listening...
You will never leave us or forsake us.
We believe in You,
we know there's always hope,
we know Your help is on the way.
Comfort them with your mighty love and wipe their tears.
Deliver those who are in pain, Lord.
Strengthen their hearts Lord so that they may not turn to despair.
we trust in You.
we trust in You, our Lord.
In the name of Jesus Christ, AMEN.

Holiday #9

This song keeps playing in my mind now...

Everybody wants to be loved
every once in a while
we all need someone to hold on to
just like a helpless child
yeah
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright

it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
and like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming

you can look for a lifetime
you can love for a day
you can think you got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away
yeah
then you look in my eyes
and i have it all
once again

it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
just like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming

didn't know i was lost
til you found me
uh huh
didn't know i was blind
but now i see
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been searching for

oh been a long long highway and
now i see
ooo loves been a long time
ooo been a long time
loves been a long time coming

Holiday #8

Sigh.

I let my frustrations out on people who have nothing to do with it,
yet are the closest to me.
I'm sorry.

Holiday #7

Too many things i wanted to write.
Too many reasons i think i shouldnt write.

Thinking of some funny things about life and people.

Holiday #6

lies.

Holiday #5

I can't believe i was down with fever and bad sore throat and now flu! What a great combo to kick start my holiday? haha. The worst thing (and the quite ironic fact) is that i can't take medicine or sweat to recover from my fever. Well, cuz i am still doing my patch test. This fever was indeed totally self-recovery!! (Now who says we must see a doctor, or take medicine?) 

Normally i don't take medicine too, but i would wrap myself in thick blanket and get myself to sweat and eventually i would feel better. However, this time round, due to the patch test, i was told i cannot sweat. And i had to sleep with my back on top. Torturing. I ended up waking up with my rib bones in pain and feeling like they would break anytime soon. In order to fight the coldness, i wrapped my legs and arms with blanket, turned on the fan so that my back won't sweat. And so i ended up sweating for my limbs, and not on my back...? I wondered if it really had worked that way. haha! (By the way, the fan was the culprit why i am now down with flu after fever was gone.)

Aaaah, just feel so sick. To add on to that, suddenly got a heavy dose of nostalgic feeling.. sigh. It's like cuz holidays have given me more time to think, to reflect on my life... and there it led me to the past and the shadows i can't seem to move on from... 

Decisions, people, expectations...

Would it upset you if that's the decision i would choose in the end?

Would you think i'm selfish?

Holiday #4

12.11.12

As for today... Nothing much happened, but many things struck my mind. Suddenly feel tensed. I guess this holiday is again not for me to enjoy. :( I went to hospital for patch test and now i have patches sticking on my back. The doctor said no sports for these five days. Boo-hoo!

And very recently, i just received a news. DEEP SIGH. I hope, and i really really pray that everything will be fine. God will take care of all right? 

Tomorrow, i am supposed to attend some Christian teachers' sharing at a pastor's office in the morning. However, i have an emergency duty which i offer to take it myself and it clashes with the sharing. I feel torn between two decisions. I know, first is i have promised i would go and they seemed so anticipated for the sharing tomorrow. But what suddenly held me back is i need to be somewhere else, with someone tomorrow morning. :( It's important, very important. Actually i might still have another one with my lecturers and Fiona tomorrow morning for our drama t-shirts. However, that one i can just let Fiona handle it as it is not a very big concern. I texted the pastor to inform him i can't make it tomorrow, but until now i still receive no reply. They must be very disappointed with me right now. 

Then, there are also more tuition classes coming. I really don't know if i could handle it but i really need to work.

Somehow everything just looks complicated to me today. :(

Father God, calm my heart.

Holiday #3

10.11.12

On Saturday I had an awesome morning with kolomee and friends. After that, we went to Kuching International Airport to send our friends off. I always don't know the feeling to be sent off by someone from the airport (Of course, not for travelling purposes, just you know, you meet airport because of study). 

Before going back home, we stopped by Boulevard to grab some good stuff for my brother and sister. A birthday present and two Christmas presents! I hope they love them! :)

At night, went out with a special friend to celebrate 10-11-12 at Mr Ho's Fine Food. The ambiance was superb and the food was really delicious! We both prepared presents to give on that day and yes, i got a mini Lego white grand piano. It's just super adorable!! Apart from that, i also received some extra presents. Wow...all are meaningful ones. Thanks! :)

The long stretched corridor with red curtains.

 

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Holiday #2

It's just the second day of holiday and i'm already soo drained out! I didn't do much today but yes, i AM exhausted. 

Today we had a final gathering for this semester before everyone went back home. It was good to be in the chapel again. :) It's was even re-assuring to hear sharing from brothers and sisters in Christ. Two of my seniors did extremely well in exam. One thing which struck me after the sharing: "If you honour God, God will honour you". It's very true - - God sees our heart! I wish i could be like them too. But i feel like these few semesters, as the lecture method changed, i feel like i've become lazier. :( I gotta work harder next sem!

The whole afternoon was spent with Miley. We had some quality chatting time, and did a lil shopping. Before sending Miley to her uncle's house, i brought her to grotto to pray. It is the place i love so much cuz i always feel peaceful there. That was also a place where many fervent prayers were lifted up. Come to think of it, i haven't visited that place for quite some time too. After praying, Miley said it was really good, she felt so peaceful, so joyful. WOW! Praise the Lord! :)

Tonight, I actually wanted to sleep early today but i received a call and a friend of mine asked me to go out of the house. I saw him waiting at the gate with presents. After receiving the presents, i felt, and feel terribly bad. I really don't want him to do so much. :( He even handmade something...it's like...i really can't take those, and i don't want to. But i guess as i've already grown older in age, and i begin to feel reluctant to reject people straight away as i understand how hurt it will. On the other hand, to just ignore it will hurt him equally bad too as he won't know my clear signal. I just need the courage to break his heart, i guess. :/

That's all for today.

Seriously need to recharge.

Holidays, welcome in!

It's FINALLY holiday! I've been waiting for this moment for so long! And it's finally here! I already have a long long list of what to do in this holiday, but i think mostly will be working, giving tuition classes, attending music classes, meeting up with friends, sports, reading novels, watching movies, sleeping, and travelling!

The exam was pretty difficult. =/ But anyway, it's over now, so bye and throw it off my head. It's time to relax. I deserve it! Two months holidays! :) Thank God for it!!! :)

Holiday - Day 1

Hello Holiday!

I went out to hunt for lovely presents after meeting with Mdm Angie and the cast and committee members for the upcoming drama next semester. I was supposed to go to this Tribal Scoops (which i've googled and the food just looked heavenly tempting!) this afternoon with sis Grace. However, it's been put off to next week which is a better idea as it won't be rush! So, i had more time to hunt for my presents for a dinner sometime soon! 

Preparing presents is such a wonderful feeling!

At night, went out for an impromptu dinner at Sharing Planet. The food was as usual, awesome and large portion. We really ate till our heart's content! Thank You for the food, Lord! Everyone praised that my dress looked pretty. :D And i proudly told everyone it was given by my cousin, and it was like, for more than 10 years dy! I just added the belt and i guess belt made wonders? :P 

A great start for a holiday!