Missing...

My mind has lots of things which i want to share. However, when i opened this page, i didn't know where to start off with, or which to write.

Okay, i will just be honest and...share what is on my mind...

I miss this...

The little hill top.

Sunday.

Got myself some new collection. :D The other day after my work i went for shopping straight with mom and sis. Worked from 8am to 3pm. Then from 3pm till 630pm. Didn't really buy much. Oh wait, i think we did. But not me. haha. I was wearing a pair of green capri pants. Imagine! How eyes-catching it was!! I was as though a walking leaf. =.= Seriously. Haha.

Anyways, i was totally not in a mood to shop that day. I was tired after my long hours of working. (I shouldn't have tortured myself with work.) Oh well, and i think i need to save money.

$ $ $ for:

1. Black baby
2. Cool in-tech baby
3. Two eyes baby
4. In-a-pair babies
5. and more!

And i also need to save some for my traveling piggy bank. :) I'm planning to go Sabah next year, and hopefully Japan. :D Of course the latter one i need sponsors. :p

A lunch with church friends at Ren Jian.

Malak mee loh! :)

We had a great time there. :) The captain there was really good-looking! All of us agreed that, I meant most of us. haha. I should have sit at Lanny's place. :p HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! After lunch, we talked and gossiped for hours. We talked about politics. For the first time, i was very interested in listening and contributing my thoughts. Haha. I used to hate politics, thought it was super boring. Perhaps, that boring part was about the law. The real one, however, is interesting.

I regret for not going out tonight! :( I can't just torture myself like this in my holidays! My friend called and asked if i want to follow them to watch movie. But i didn't go. Sigh. I can't continue on like this! This is a holiday, if i don't enjoy now, when can i enjoy when school starts? Hell life would be back by then. Plus, lots of adjustments need to be made cuz starting from next semester, i'm staying at home instead of hostel.

Well, this is... a sad part in my holiday. Today is the 14th, i have only three more days to complete my work. Planned to finish 60% of it by tomorrow. :) Hopefully i don't have anymore distraction like tonight. I need to stay focus!

Oh yea, i think i have a serious problem. Do i have poor communication skill? =/ i wonder. This is not the first time. Why it seems that i always can't make people understand my thoughts? Or is it because of the wrong topic everytime? I don't like misunderstandings. :(

Anyways, share with you all:

难过了，就蹲下来，抱抱自己 :)

How true. And i really really love this quote. Quoted from Kai Yen. :D

Why didn't i?

seeing something different.

Monday . 22nd March 2010

Run towards your dream!

Went to a camp, learnt a lot of things!! :) I feel like i have grown a little. :D Praise Lord! Hmm, i actually wanted to type out a lot of things regarding on the camp, it taught me a lot of things. First time cried in a camp listening to real life stories; first time sleeping on a bunk bed (was sleeping on the top alone, very scary i tell you! i didn't know which side to turn to at night. empty beds besides me.); first time shared on photography experience with some adults (they are really nice people); first time had my sand fight (the enemy was ah wei stupid boy who gets jealous easily.); first time took bath with *euuurrrk* erm, water which looked like coffee; first time praising people so many times in four days! Lot's of new things. It was a good try! :)

Good thing, good thing.... here comes the BAD THING! I got bitten by those super poisonous wild insects. The bites are swollen now. Sobs. They are very irritating, itchy, and painful when you touch them. Not again not again not again.

big SIGH.

I learnt to be patient, learnt to praise, learnt to appreciate... And the most important thing i learnt from this camp is about dream. It is always a sensitive issue which will stir my feelings up. However, after this, i think i am going to face it with a stronger heart. I can't just stay like this forever. It's time to change my mindset.

每一个梦想都一定会经过考验。
不要为了盲目地追求自己的梦想而伤害爱你的人。

How true. Eric's sharing touched me a lot, i cried and i realized how self-centered i was. Then, from one of the game in Team Building, there's one game where the whole group had to cross over a string, hand in hand. The sharing and the game were like a wake up knock. They might be wrong at killing me dream, or snatching it away from me. BUT i was even wrong for doing all the things i have done, for saying all the words which hurt them. :(

梦想，梦想。如果到最后弄到其他的人受伤，爱你的人为你心痛，大家都不开心 - - 那么那个梦想到底有什么用啊？曾经很自私地认为所有的人都很坏，不过到最后，自己应该才是那个不迁就别人的人吧？

[I will upload the photos soon in Facebook, maybe next week.]

Holidays are over. SO FAST! It wasn't a holiday anyway. Yesterday went out with Pastor, Ah Wei, Lanny after church to The Hills shopping mall for lunch. After that went out with Amy to watch Alice in the Wonderland 3D!!! It turned out to be a continuation of the story of Alice after she had grown up. I like the last part where there was a modern dance by the hatter.

Alice in the Wonderland

Too bad the time was really not enough, only managed to watch a movie then walked around for awhile. Then Amy's daddy sent me home. I like her daddy. So "young", so funny... hehe. He asked me already got boyfriend or not. I replied 'no' then he said must be daring to look for the one i love, don't wait for him to make the move. If not, the guy will go away. LOL!!! He said now the world has changed; the girls can go after the boys. :) And he says to find the true love, must pray specifically. :) What kinda boy you want - smart, handsome, bla bla...

Anyways, now i'm sooooo busy with things. My life. My studies. Well, i got no time. I have tried, but i think i can't. So, yeah. I dunno if the things i am doing now are giving the wrong signals or what, but just wanna clarify that i'm not planning on anything right now. I just like the time i spent together with you all. Laughing and fooling around. Text you when i am bored. Well, but i still believe in waiting. :) If you want the answer, ask again on my birthday this year. Perhaps I will answer you honestly this year.*

Ooh, and i just got my phone back. Hmm, lost ALL the messages. Well, perhaps, it is an indication, an indication that i should move on and start all over again with nothing. :) Feeling good for this, though i miss the time in the past, though i still want to hold on to the memories. But no no no, i'm gonna let them go, one by one, or all at once. I don't want to be entangled in the past. anymore.

Two exams papers are given back. Kinda disappointed. Will talk about it more after i have gotten all the papers back. Gonna be super busy this week. Lots of things to do, lots of activities, lots of preparation to be done. HEADACHE!

In JUNE holiday, i just want to sit at home, doing nothing, starring aimlessly at the ceiling, asking myself, "what should i do?" :p or perhaps, if i really can't stand the state where i have nothing to do, i will just find something i enjoy doing. Currently have one plan in mind. :D

Next movie...

How to train your dragon :D

A new start.
Goodbye, you!

Retreat Camp at Gunung Gading

Joined my YA's retreat camp which was held at Gunung Gading, two days one night. First trip to there for myself. It was, a memorable experience. (And a very saddening one! My cyber-shot phone wasn't with me! sobs) Anyways, not much to say about the camp, my brain could hardly think of anything now. =/

Last night, after BBQ and sharing, it's the typical stayed-up night. With Hui Hui, Ambrose, Lanny and ah wei in the living room. We slept around 430 when everyone was so weak of laughing non-stop. I had my gastric attack which was really torturing. T.T In the end, Hui Hui went into the bedroom to sleep, only me - a girl - left in the living room with the guys. I didn't know at first cuz i fell asleep on the sofa. It was really really cold! I was forcing myself to sleep, without a blanket! I slept around 5am, then woke up around 630am. Massaging my feet, hoping they would get warmer. Seriously, my feet were as cold as ice! and painful! Gosh... Hmm. And you, thanks for keeping me warm. :)

I looked out the window since i couldn't sleep (due to the gastric pain), and i saw the guard coming. Ambrose, ah wei them joked that the guard must have seen me. LOL. Imagine. You are patrolling, and you saw a head looking at you, from a window of one of the chalet. How would you feel? Gosh. I dare not to imagine. My weak heart can't take any shock. :p

I was wearing my hat today for the jungle trail. The girls commented that i looked like a Korean. Wooh. Happy :) Here are the photos i took with my 2mp normal phone.

waterfall

I love the sound of water cascading.

Finding its bud, in vain. However, will be back here after two weeks to catch a view of a blossoming Rafflesia. :)

Green. The light effect is good. I love the sun rays penetrated through the leaves.

take 2.

In a nutshell, the camp was really enjoyable. Relaxing. :) They are planning to go for another camp, (more of holiday camp, i dunno.) at Batang Ai Resort and guess what? We'd be staying in a six-star hotel! Woot! Year end... save money save money. (earn money? maybe i need that.)

MOCK exam in a week!!! O_O Not really stressed out yet but i'm worried i am running out of time. I wanted to study but my brain is not in a good condition to study now. All i want is just - SLEEP. I still feel sleepy although i took a long nap straight after i had reached home. Zz. Aah. tired tired. exhausted.

I have fallen in love...
with a song! Will tell you guys next time. I wish i could sing it while playing piano. and record it! :p

something really upsetting:
it seems that it just brings hurt more than happiness now.
so i have decided.
to do what's right
and to let go what's not worth it.
because i can't keep running away,
i have to face it someday
and the day is here. :)

semibreve rest.
a temporary rest or an eternal rest for a song?

CNY

Aaah. Sad sad sad. I thought it would be a wonderful new year, with everyone gathers together. Guess things have changed a lot ey. It's unlike before. Starting from the 3rd day of CNY, i didn't even step out of the house. So, you can imagine my CNY. =.=

A CNY with less visiting. A CNY with assignments. T.T FIVE assignments, one banner. That banner, sigh! dunno killed how many of my brain cells. And today, sigh. Body pains, bones ache, diarrhoea from morning. nausea. Headache. and was developing a fever, luckily it has subsided now.

Photos from visiting.

at my place

ah yiing's place

meet my new friend!

I dunno what happened, but this girl grew taller! (or did i experience a decline in growth?) and she's so fair! (Oh i used to be fair, but dated too many outdoor activities. =.= now i have the sporty skin tone.)

Geral (photographer) in action!

I took this i took this! nice leh. Actually got a video clip on this special firework display. Why special? 'Cuz it has heart shapes!!! Really! ♥
and see how GIGANTIC it was?

The guys. The fireworks looked like...

Starwars lightsabers!

This reminded me of how much i want this!!! A pair of lightsaber chopsticks!
(To add in to my collection.)

at Evan's place

The effect is not really good. =/

Visiting mom's colleague, Ms Hazel's mansion!
(I called it glass house.)

I've taken a lot of photos of the interior design actually.
This is one of them.
Swimming pool!!! I want to have a house like hers!
I'm collecting inspiration for my future house. :p

awesome!

Pssst! I want a DSLR!

new banner. It's actually quite similar to the first one which i have done right. =.= But then the measurement changed, so have to redo everything. Gahh! But frankly speaking, it is not as nice as the first one. And just look at it, the space is uneven. There's a space just beside the tent while the 'series series' thingy had to squeeze near compass. Oh well. I DON'T CARE. So glad that it's finally done now. GOODBYE, SO LONG, my nightmare! I shall never, ever, EVER touch any banner design for school! It gave me so much stress. Uh...

19th FEBRUARY 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TIT!!! :)