How much is enough?

How much is enough for you to see that i'm trying to help you too?
How much is enough to show you that i really want to do my best part...
Never had i wanted to make you feel bad.
:(

I'm sorry.

Tears...to JOY!

Did one of the craziest things during study week. 1130pm, felt sleepy so headed to the bed. On the bed, i continued reading my novel before the real sleepiness set in....but ended up, spending the whole night until almost dawn reading and crying (and it's like crying really badly, and at some of the point it was hard to stop). Stopped then cried as the sad part appeared, stopped and cried... What a night of tears!

Then the wonderful thing is this morning i woke up to chirping of birds! Feel so wonderful despite the awful night (which i can't explain why i was so emotional, perhaps kinda related the characters to some people around me). 

In short, it reminded me how sad last night was and how beautiful the morning is today! From tears to JOY! It's another beautiful day given by God. 

Are you breathing?

If yes, GIVE THANKS! 

And live today to the fullness, live it as a gift to God.

The novel which won the most tearul novel, so far!

Reflection on the novel 'The Best of Me' by Nicholas Sparks:

What Tuck has written in the letter for Dawson and Amanda really touched me. Dealing with relationship, some may find ourselves lost, stuck in between choices, and sometimes, even disappointed for whatever choices we have made in the past. And often than not, we make the not-so-right decision when we are confused.

The love between Tuck and his wife, Clara was also a touching love story as love continued on even when one passed away, Tuck could still feel her presence every time whenever he embraced in the memories of them together. And their love soothed the pain Tuck had to go through after the loss of his dearly loved wife.

There is really love that keeps to its promise when one said "I give you the best of me".

There could be a person whom claimed that he loves you, and he will do until the end, only loving you.

There are people whose right to love and live with their true loves is taken away just because of social status, or even family history. 

There is also love when you know you could stay to give the person you love the best he/she needs, yet at the same time the best for him/her or you is for you to walk away.

The ending... 

(i leave it for you, don't wanna be a spoiler! :P)

Affairs.

Used to have one true love....

Agnes and violin...

As time goes by, i started to grow interest in other things. I wanted to achieve more. 

Piano, guitar, ukulele, flute...

lots and lots...

Sometimes i wonder, am i talented enough to learn all? Cuz i really hope i could. I enjoy the joy different kinds of musical instruments brought me. However, am i too ambitious? Am i too distracted and hence fail to focus on just one thing?

Tonight, i realized that i am far from good in playing piano, which i claimed as my forte. :( Perhaps, i have abandoned it for a long time, the feelings faded a bit. After the practice just now, i feel that the skill and knowledge i have for piano is just the surface level. There's still lots of things i haven't mastered. Feel rather ashamed in front of others. =/ and a little stressed.

They are good.

I feel like it's back to the first time when i wanted to play piano. It's when i saw people could play so well, and i wished i could play like them too. I wondered since young, why didn't my parents send me fr violin class or piano class... But i believe it's not to late to begin again now, is it?

During this year end's long holiday, 

i have decided to do something...for my dreams. :)

Drifted apart.

In response to something what i feel lately.

Actually wanted to say this for a long time. Don't want to post on Facebook to make a big fuss out of it, or to make people starting to guess who that person is (i know how that feels like). Just suddenly feel that it's better not to get close with someone at the first place. 

The time and effort you put in for someone, were all forgotten. In a blink of eyes, people turned and said you minded their flaws. Well, i don't want to explain more, i'm sure my explanation is not wanted as well (as i have tried), even if i didn't mean the thing but if others thought otherwise. Even if now i'm trying to at least make the first move to save it back, it seems to be no avail. There's no use to save it back anymore, perhaps. Words said, impressions mad (for both parties). I'm not saying i didnt do anything wrong, i made mistakes too, in this.

Perhaps, people just haven't known me truly yet. But i won't say that they're wrong with what they are doing. 

In whatever you do, make sure you are happy! :) Be happy!