矛盾的心跳

隧道

 

時間一分一秒 心情像白雲 自在的飄

獨自坐在公園一角 任憑風衝進懷抱

十二點的鐘聲 傳遍了城市每條街道

期待擁抱 又害怕會被你知道

到底是要遠遠看你 還是靠近一點更好

我不確定 你是不是 我一直要找的主角

我用騙人的祈禱 騙自己我現在很好

和你在一起的每分每秒 就像走過 彩虹隧道

時間一分一秒 同一座城市相互尋找

獨自坐在公園一角 看著雨後的青草

十二點的鐘聲 傳遍了城市每條街道

有誰知道 我現在矛盾的心跳

到底是要遠遠看你 還是靠近一點更好

我不確定 你是不是 我一直要找的主角

我用騙人的祈禱 騙自己我已經看到

忐忑不安的背後是微笑 是我們的 彩虹隧道

幻想不停圍繞 它很美也很煎熬

我卻無法選擇 要或不要

到底是要遠遠看你 還是靠近一點更好

我不確定 你是不是 我夢中見過的主角

我用騙人的祈禱 騙自己你沒有看到

陽光底下我的心像羽毛 跟你飛過 彩虹隧道

This song speaks my heart!!!

Holiday #9

This song keeps playing in my mind now...

Everybody wants to be loved
every once in a while
we all need someone to hold on to
just like a helpless child
yeah
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright

it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
and like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming

you can look for a lifetime
you can love for a day
you can think you got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away
yeah
then you look in my eyes
and i have it all
once again

it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
just like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming

didn't know i was lost
til you found me
uh huh
didn't know i was blind
but now i see
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been searching for

oh been a long long highway and
now i see
ooo loves been a long time
ooo been a long time
loves been a long time coming

Kiss The Rain

I often close my eyes,
And I can see you smile.
You reach out for my hand,
And I'm woken from my dream.
Although your heart is mine,
It's hollow inside.
I never had your love,
And I never will.

And every night
I lie awake,
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you,
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes?

I've never felt this way,
To be so in love,
To have someone there,
Yet feel so alone.
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears?
The one to say that you would never leave?

The waters calm and still,
My reflection is there.
I see you holding me
But then you disappear.
All that is left of you,
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams.

I don't know what hurts you,
But I can feel it too.
And it just hurts so much,
To know that I can't do a thing.
And deep down in my heart,
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you...

So why am I still here in the rain?

Reluctance.

Jesus, Take The Wheel

Songwriters: James, Brett; Lindsey, Hillary; Sampson, Gordie;

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy
With the baby in the backseat

Fifty miles to go and she was running low
On faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning
On a thin black sheet of glass

She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Because I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat
Sleeping like a rock

And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life

I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Because I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go

So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, ooh

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8-YO6g05aA

Very meaningful. :)

Let God be God. :) He knows what to do. :') ♥
He always knows.

Best of Me

I was made the wrong way.
Won't you do me the right way?
Where you gonna be tonight?
Cuz I won't stay too long.

Maybe you're the light for me,
When you talk to me it strikes me.
Won't somebody help me?
Cuz I don't feel too strong.

Was there something that I said?
Was there something that I did?
Or the combination I both that did me end?

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along,
Though it's not your favorite song.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say.
You know that some of us spin again,
When you do you need a friend.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me.
And I hate the thought finally been erased.
Baby that's the best of me.

Everything's behind you,
But the whole place signs besides you.
Living in the moment.
Have I wasted all your time?

Was there something that I said?
Was there something that I did?
Or the combination I both that did me end?

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along,
Though it's not your favorite song.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say.
You know that some of us spin again,
When you do you need a friend.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me,
And I hate the thought finally been erased.
Baby that's the best of me.
Baby that's the best of me.

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along,
Though it's not your favorite song.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say.
You know that someone those spin again,
When you do you need a friend.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me.
And I hate the thought finally been erased.
Baby that's the best of me.

- Best of Me by Daniel Powter -


Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me

For you...

sen no yoru wo koete by aqua timez

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Gotta keep this song forever.. :)

Collide

Collide lyrics
Songwriters: Griffin, Kevin; Day, Howie;

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you, yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide
You finally find you and I collide

Eyes on Me

I love this song form Final Fantasy VIII. And if you are reading this, this is for you.

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you?

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I love your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know That I had mine on you?

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

A very lovely song. Find it a little melancholic as well. Oh well, this kinda song is my favourite. :)

Songs

It feels good, after you have just taken your bath, and then you are sitting beside your bed, in your comfortable room, eating orange, playing songs loudly. relax and enjoy~

Songs in my play list.
1) Crazier
2) Vanilla Twilight
3) When There Was Me And You
4) Only Hope
5) Two is Better than One.
6) I want to know what love is.
7) No More Heroes

These are just some songs i'm listening to now. I want to select some songs for my play, at the same time, enjoy the musics and lyrics.

CRAZIER - Taylor Swift
I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

Ohhhh

Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh Ohh

You lift my feet off the ground
You take me away
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier Crazier

>> This songs makes me feel in love. ♥ We are going to use this song as our ballroom dance in the play. :) I'll be dancing too! :D
VANILLA TWILIGHT - Owl City
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

>> If a guy (or it should be the guy) sings this to me, i will melt!!! It's simply so sweeeeeeet! It's not just a typical 'i love you' song. It's coming from the heart! The heart sings it. Awww! ♥ ♥ ♥

FALLIN' FOR YOU - Colbie Cailet
I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me
I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)
I’m fallin’ for you
Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you
>> I'm falling for you! :)

NO MORE HEROES - Westlife
When the waves are crashing down
Pulling you to sorrow
I will sail you back to shore
When there are no more heroes
Over under, near or far
I'll be right beside you
Standing here with open arms
When there are no more heroes

Chorus:
And through it all
And through it all
When you're tired and you stumble I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroes
It was you who showed me how
Brought me back to glory
Through hopelessness and darkest days
It was breath you gave me

>> Nice nice! Thanks Thian for the song. Meaningful lyrics. :)

WHEN THERE WAS ME AND YOU - HSM
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

>> it's kinda a sad song. haha. But it speaks mind. :)

Haha, just for sharing. I always fall in love with songs cuz of the lyrics and the melody. :) There are more songs with meaningful lyrics. Perhaps, i will post them next time. Gotta run now. Going back earlier today. Wanna decorate my room. :)

A sign a sign a sign!

Growing a little more

Actually i felt the urge of posting this last night, but had to study so couldn't post it. Hmm.

Saturday night. I went to youth to mentor those 'kids'. Nah. Actually i don't have the qualification to call them 'kids'. I'm still one of them! Being a toddler, just started to learn how to walk with God. Lots of things to learn, just like them. The whole night was about "Happiness", err, i would summarize it like that since we didn't have an exact title. Well, i won't say that i am a happy-go-lucky person, or that i am optimistic. Most of the time, what i would do was sighing over the bad things that happened. But that night i realized, if i would count my blessings every time when bad things happen, i would see those bad things as nothing. Really. I have received so many wonderful blessings, gifted talents, or special characteristics which only I have. I'm smart, not a genius, not stupid. I'm pretty, not stunning, not ugly. I'm blessed with gifted talents, not very talented, not without any talents. And many many more wonderful blessings! Sometimes, it is really not necessary to care too much when bad things happened. Of course, we will be emotionally affected, but don't make it sound like it's the end of the world, don't keep the grief long. Let it go and embrace God's blessings.

Then Pastor Bong showed us a short clip on Mr Nick, (http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/) the man with no limbs. Yet he's living such a cheerful life, and he's using his life to touch other lives. He's confidently telling people, if i could do it, why can't you? I should be very contented that at least, i still have my limbs. This is how he talked about life.

"It matters how you are going to finish it."
"and i am going to finish it strong."

I was enlightened.


During Sunday's Praise and Worship session, I was touched when i saw Uncle Jimmy, almost crying, when singing one of the song. "Jehovah, You are my God" I wasn't sure what happened, but i felt like crying too.The lyrics, i try to remember as much as i could yea.

耶和华，你是我的神。我要时时称颂你的名。
你是我的盾牌，我所依靠的，有时叫我抬起头的神。
纵然仇敌围绕攻击我，在你怀中必不怕遭害。
你是我的神，我所依靠的，你同在使我全然得胜。

You see, it's just simply so amazing, so wonderful how God touches our lives. We are so weak, but we have God. And through the songs, we sing out our praises for His almighty work, we give thanks to Him for all He has done. And that is why, i would really hope God to use me in this service. I would want to sing His love, as long as i breathe, i want to praise Him, thank Him, tell people about Him. Besides Uncle Jimmy, i saw another old lady, Gracie's friend's grandma i think. When we were singing the last song, i saw her singing with full gratitude. It really touched me how God has changed the life of everyone of us. And the songs that Sunday morning happened to give me strength and assurance to continue my life with courage and faith. I can't tell the future, but i know i would be safe if i follow closely the God who knows my future.

And i was enlightened, again.


11/01/2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Mun and Bert! :)
Continue to grow in Jesus Christ and shine for Him!

Stay.

Stay

if you could just stay,
i won't be afraid of things around me.
if you could just stay,
i know that i have someone near to turn to when trouble comes.
if you could just stay,
you could protect me from things that steal my faith away.
if you could just stay,
we could embrace each days together as it comes.
if you could just stay,
you could keep me company when loneliness creeps in.
if you could just stay,
you could keep me warm in your arms when i shiver.
if you could just stay,
your presence alone will sparkle my world with beautiful glitters.
if you could just stay,
you could add on more happiness to my life, more than you could imagine.

Hold my hand now, and stay here.
Whisper to me, "I'm here."

Stay...and everything will be alright.
because you are right beside me.

Uiit! Feel like making a song! hehe. it has been a longg time. :) Mmm. Good idea! Gonna pay a visit to Ruby dear soon. Of course, i need to edit the lyrics, make it better, more suitable for a song. Well, i was just simply typing some words for the pic just now.

Ooh by the way, that's another design from me. How's it? I did it just now. Erm, can't sleep again. X( It's the time when my imagination is the wildest. So i guess i should design around this hour? haha. Ok, the pic, it was taken in Boulevard. (went there with church friends today after church this morning) Hmm, basically, i want to focus on the snow globe itself, and of course the couple in it. They look sweet. :) I simply love snow globes! They always look precious to me, and make me want to keep them nicely. And whenever i shake it, as the delicate glittering and sparkling "snow" float around gracefully, it reminds me of the beautiful memories i had. :)

I'm so gonna try to make one someday! :D

if you could just stay
here.

I Still Believe

Lyrics | Hayden Panettiere lyrics - I Still Believe lyrics

a song in Cinderella 3 - i love the lyrics, and of course the whole song. :) Enjoy!

Know what, recently i'm so into Fairy Tales. Been watching Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella 3 and some Barbie movies lately. Don't laugh!! You were once like that before. Not Fairy Tales perhaps, but what about Power Rangers, Pokemon or Ultraman? hohoho. Don't know why, feel like going back to childhood again. Found lots of lovely songs with meaningful lyrics and beautiful rhythm. Last night was watching Barbie when i realized i only have the first part of it. :( I want to finish it! Barbie and the Diamond Castle. The songs are niceeeee! I'll upload more soon.

Wanna intro, if anyone of you who has not watched Cinderella 3, try it! Really. Aiyah, don't need to care how old you are now, Fairy Tales are meant for everyone, regardless of your age. It's really a funny and romantic story. Cinderella's fairy God mother's magic wand being snatched by the evil stepmother and her two step sisters (if you still remember them). So the stepmother used the wand to make everything go back to before, before the ball where Cinderella met her Prince Charming. Her stepmother even put a spell on the prince so that he will forget who he had danced with. But then..... "You will know that you love that person, by the touch of your hands." something like that, can't really remember. The ending....i'll leave it for you to watch! haha. Try it, not bad. :) and i looove the last sentence. "they lived happily ever after...again!"

there's no IF.

没有如果

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果如果
如果如果如果最后变路过
我们不能接受
错过错过
错过错过错过我们一定能过
不会一错再错

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

别怕太快了别怕失去我

如果我说爱我没有如果

错过就过你是不是会难过

若如果拿来当借口

那爱是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱没有如果

真的爱我就放手一搏

还想什么还怕什么

快牵起我的手
快牵起我的手...

so? :)