Drown!

Exactly! I'm drown in piles of work! :(

Lord, i need more strength! Grant me perseverance to endure all this.
Thank You, Lord!


Fourteen more days! ;)

The BEST

"You may not know me, but i know everything about you." Psalm 139:1
"I know when you sit down and when you rise up." Psalm 139:2
"I am familiar with all your ways." Psalm 139:3

Only You know us the best. :)

His mighty plans.

I had a lot to write last night when i was having some problem falling asleep. My mind was thinking about too many things and even i did count the numbers over and over again, it was to no avail. So in the end, i slept at 5am. And woke up few hours later. It was raining in the morning so no tennis. :( Kinda miss sports.

Anyways, recently i just feel that life is so amazingly wonderful, when you put your trust in God, and let Him guide you. A lot of wonderful and unexpected things happened. And i know for sure that my faith in Him has grown a lil more stronger! When i feel like i'm close to God, when i know that i could rely fully on Him, there's this fountain of happiness in my heart and constantly nourishing my heart. Thank You, Lord. :) He always has a reason behind everything. Even though at first it may not seem to be something we could comprehend, but just trust Him and believe Him, He will reveal the reason when His time comes. By then, you would be amazed and touched by His plans for you. It is all in His plans. :)



Often when we have an image in our mind of what we want to be happening, and when we see that it isn't we think nothing is happening.

It will be a wonderful day ahead! :)

Panic button pressed!

I always wanted to sleep early, but i always can't. I'm now stealing a bit of my time to sprinkle something here. Suddenly feel the urge to write, though i didn't feel like writing anything too personal. But well, here it goes.

My course doesn't go too well as i expected. Well, there is certainly a huge gap between Foundation level and Degree level. Foundation was fun, but the beginning of Degree year has already given me a hard time. At first i told myself to hold on and persevere. However, it's been almost two months and i still can't adapt quite well to it. And now, i feel like learning has become more like something i have to do for the sake to pass the exam. Where's the meaning in learning? But don't worry, i'm still searching for it. I hope i won't give up that easily, because whatever that i feel now makes me really wanna surrender. To add on to the problems i am already facing right now, here came all the assignments which need to be handed in within a month. These assignments are no longer like the one we had, where i really enjoyed doing them especially Literature. Now, everything is more academic. Take for instance, the contents required are deeper and the format of the assignments became so fixed. I missed making scrapbook! :'(

I feel like i'm breaking anytime soon. I hope that i'm in my bed now. I hope i could sleep early. There's too much inner struggles in me. I don't wanna fight anymore. And another thing, i've been breathing for 19 years and almost 2 months, there's just one thing i never really learnt - time management. I'm too busy for things going on and on and on. :(

Anyways, lately i am really a lil bit stressed out so i did the thing i always did - to go closer to God literally. I want myself to be influenced and encouraged by seeing how others live in Him. How much faith they have in Him in times of distress. I just need to see Him through some other people sometimes. I just came back from a gathering at Dr Wong's house. I heard some sharing about how those young people in the Old Testament kept their faith in God. Daniel and his friends, how they overcame the temptations, and finally glorified God with their strong and firm belief in Him. Some sharing here...

Many times when we pray, we waited for a very long time until we finally gave in to temptations which are luring us. Actually, when we pray, God answers. The answers will be: Yes, No, or Wait. Often, we cannot wait that long enough to see what He actually reserved for us. Well, i think now i have finally submitted my life to Him again, and let Him have the steering wheel of my life. He will bring me to place He has reserved for me long time ago. Lord, i believe You have heard my prayer. I will wait until the day You show me Your answer. I will wait. :)

Apart from that, I know i have not been a very excellent example to glorify Him for the past, but i hope i will be, starting from this moment. I know i have said words which hurt people, or behaved the way i shouldn't have. But for now, i just want to set my focus on Him and please Him alone. I will learn to forgive people as how He has forgiven me. At times we are deeply emotionally crushed when people developed a negative perception about us when we are actually doing the right thing (but perhaps just some flaws at the wrong timing). But what i have learnt is that, we don't live to please the world. We are here, to please God, to live in His way, to love Him, to show people about Him. As long as we are doing the right thing, there's nothing to be bothered when things like that happened. The main lesson is, we learn from it and move on. At the end of the day, God judges us based on our whole life, not just part of the life where we made a mistake.

Another thing, we really need a spiritual friend(s). They will provide the support we need when we feel weak. I'm grateful that i have found brothers and sisters in Christ who are always there for me. Well, that's what these special brothers and sisters are for - to cheer each other on in faith when life gets hard. Sometimes they will just be the ones who remind you about God when you almost forget about Him.

So yeah, that's what i wanted to share. It's past 1am now and i need to sleep now. Lecture starts at 830am until 415pm. After that would be tennis and a CNY gathering at school. It's gonna be another hectic day. Lord, thank You for today, and hope You'll continue to guide me throughout my day tomorrow. :)

Know your focus.

Model: My Gracie. :)

My accessories.

:D

:)

Keep on trying!!!

Aaaah, i'm really exhausted. Played three hours straight. I didn't feel tired just now, only when i came back and bathed, the feeling set in. haha

几米说

当你喜欢我的时候，我不喜欢你，
当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你，
当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你，
是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟，错过了泰坦尼克号，
错过了一切的惊险与不惊险，我们还要继续错过。
我不了解我的寂寞来自何方，但我真的感到寂寞。
你也寂寞，世界上每个人都寂寞，只是大家的寂寞都不同吧。

Fortitude

Fortitude [noun]


bravery over a long period

mental strength in facing hardships in our life

the platform for this 'fortitude' are..... praying, praying, and praying...

Spring cleaning!

This morning, i cleared off all the letters. ALL. :) Last time i was just so childish. haha. Talking with friends about crushes, handsome and sweet guys, setting up blogs, school life, family life and so on. haha

But we all became more mature now. Looking back at those, haha, those were really the silly things. I've thrown them away. (to recycle center of course) One beautiful memory from it is that we really played what a friend ought to do - - be there for each other. :) In the letters, we encouraged one another, cheering each other on when life got tough.

Right now, we are all separated by distance, but hopefully our hearts are not. :)

小领悟

很多的时候，当我们错过时，就再也没有回头的机会了。

今天，我无意间遇见它，看了看就走了。回头想来找它时，却找不 到了。我来回走了很多遍，希望可以找到它。但是路也走了几十次，就是找不到它了。这时，才突然恍然大悟：原来错过了，就是错过，再想挽回也没有用。虽然有 点伤心，失落，但是我跟自己说若下次再让我遇见它，我会好好地抓紧它，不再错失它了。

想要拥有，就不要错过。

Follow your butterflies!

Follow your butterflies!

Do the thing that gives you the biggest knots in your stomach. Notice what scares you most, then grab life with both sweaty palms.