Dear self,

please, start to work!!!

I would always...spend 1 hour stressing myself out and tensing myself up...
Another 1 hour to only start looking at the work, then i would think of how impossible it is...
another 1 hour to slowly draft my plan out, doing, sighing, building up the momentum...
another 1 hour to finally get the momentum going...
by that time.......... I would have not enough time to complete my work.
ARGH. this . is . so . stressful.

test...

I am trying if blogger works on my phone.

Boo.

stop all this.

don't try anymore.

quit.

don't simply tell stories to people whom you have just met.

say goodbye.


YAY! That's more like it. Hopefully...it's understood.
Alright, time to sleep.

Growing pains

Few days ago, i was upset seeing the way teenagers handled an activity. I wondered when they would grow up. I wondered when they would be independent on their own. I was puzzled why they were still so naive, so immature...

until i read a comment...

"We don't want to grow up."

It shocked me. It stirred me.

All this while, we kept thinking that growing up was good for them, we kept thinking that they didn't know about life, we kept thinking that they didn't know what responsibility is... Not knowing they actually didn't want it to happen too!

They didn't want to grow up.

They don't want to leave their safety zone yet because the future is unpredictable and they're afraid. They knew the responsibility that one day will be added on to their shoulders. They knew about life, they knew growing up isn't something enjoyable and easy.

I guess
we shouldn't simply judge them
when we actually feel
the same too.

Urm...

typed.


erased.

hmm

This morning, i

had a terrible nightmare. :'(

20 things

i don't care but i just want to ask and say something for now.

1st. when i ask 'why', i mean it when i ask it because i want to know why. If you choose not to answer, then just bear whatever consequences it will bring.
2nd. people just can't understand things. I wonder why.
3rd. what kind of attitudes have we been wearing all this while? Think about it.
4th. are we doing enough?
5th. are we always giving our best?
6th. are you that numb to not even know what do all these mean?
7th. Okay, now are you too sensitive to think that i'm talking about you?
8th. wrong timing!
9th. is it still not enough?
10th. stop pretending. it makes me sick seeing all this.
11th. ambiguity. too bad we don't share the same mind to interpret things.
12th. too late too late too late!
13th. i won't go back. i will not permit myself to.
14th. like an excited schoolboy who found a bird nest, happily showed to his friend, who then stole it from him.
15th. but it is still the same, is it not? doesn't matter, does it?
16th. FRUSTRATED.
17th. i don't feel like going there. not anytime soon.
18th. i'm cool with it.
19th. i've taken it off. it helps me to see it less often, and thus...
20th. i can keep it safe and sound. :)

random

the girl who was sitting at the Bing cafe = emo?

lol.

should have taken the pic of that lah you! haha

Anyways, feeling so stupid.

[no reply pls, thanks.]

What would you do

if someone you treasure the most, tells you he/she has not much time left?

if the one you really want to stay with, has to leave you soon?

if you can't stop imagine life without him/her?

an empty box

you open it,

it's empty.

For the guys...

true true true! xD