THREE more weeks :)

Helloooo! It's been a long time. i'm back again. THREE MORE WEEKS to holiday! HOLIDAY! Gee, really can't wait for holiday to be here. I have a whole list of things to do. HOLIDAY. I would want to meet up with friends, make up for the time i couldn't be with them. HOLIDAY. I want to spend more time for myself, doing things i indulge in. HOLIDAY. I want to go shopping and traveling. HOLIDAY. I want to go to beach. Owh, please let holiday come to me fast. :)

So...let's start with today. A Saturday. Woke up late. :D Then watched Korean Drama. :) Spring Waltz. The guys are sooo shuai! And the main character (the girl) so pretty!!! Spring Watlz Spring Waltz!!! Okay, you see. I'm so busy until i've missed so many wonderful dramas. *sigh* Anyways, it's time to catch back some dramas, to cry, to laugh, to fantasize. :)

Ooh, and then i helped mom with some house chores. After that, i showed her some videos and photos taken during Musical Night and the Masquerade Annual Dinner. After that, went to work. Back from work, i cooked pasta. :D it has been a long time since i last cooked. At night, i'm too tired to go anywhere. So basically, i just sit here, in front of the laptop, in front of the TV. I'm watching the TV, talking to mom about my life in campus there, updating my blog, uploading photos, texting, drinking bali... Shared some thoughts with mom. Hmm.

my dinner, my fave.. :)

Friday (30/10/09)
Poem Presentation

It was scary! really. Cuz Mdm Angie used a videocam to record our presentation. I don't know why, but i got so nervous seeing that expressionless one-eye machine. Oh yea, and the night before, we had our practice. We had Prison Break live on show!

why?

We were at block G practising. When we were done, we realised the door downstairs was locked. Dead meat. LOCKED. How are we supposed to do? Jump down from there and break one or two limbs? haha. Luckily, Jac found an escape for us. We climbed out from the window. It was COOL.

Fiona escaping xp

But, one thing to ponder on. Don't tell me someone who saw the light on at the first floor, yet still locked the grill without checking. Furthermore, we were recording our voices, so definitely our voices would be heard. How could someone actually accidentally lock the grill? Hence, i think that person must have done it on purpose. And i wonder who.

Friday (30/10/09)
Masquerade Annual Dinner
Four Points Hotel - Rainforest Ballroom

the huge ballroom.

i love this pic. The serviette together with the red ROSE drink.

The purple handkerchief is a free gift. Purple! :)

the guys with Mr Tingang.

Mr T: the rule for masquerade is you don't know that person behind the mask. So you have to ask, "have we met before?"

it's too dark but i'm sure you still can see me :)

I went there quite early to practise with the keyboard. Too bad it's just keyboard. It would be better if it was a piano. :( Played quite badly eh. Cuz i was too nervous and i didnt really get used to it. Besides, didnt really have enough practice before that. However, it's not very bad also lah. :) The food was OKAY la, though not very very delicious. RM60.oo wor... T.T No piano there, really unexpected from such a high class hotel.

You know what, it's really funny that i didnt go around busy taking photos. Yet, i was taking the photos of the cutlery, serviette, dinner table and other people. Dad was away for traveling. Mom doesn't know how to drive to Four Points. I wanted to drive but didnt know how to go as well. Besides, it was raining, and um, traffic jam at that time. So thanks to ah siang for the lift back home and the little tiger! ^^

i put it on my handbag :)

cute leh? :)

Tuesday & Wednesday (27-28/10/09)
Galaxy of Stars Musical Night
Taza


It was awesome!!! AWESOME! :) :) :) Really. I really really admire those who could sing so super well. I enjoyed "You Raised Me Up", "The Phantom of the Opera" and "Heal the World". I'm sorry but really, before this, i don't even listen to MJ's song, but after listening to Heal the World, i'm really touched. It was a really lovely song, the lyrics are wonderful. Hehe. Btw, the YB's card, i made for them :) which took me whole evening. Mdm Angie said they're nice. :)

However, TOO BAD TOO BAD i didnt have my camera with me. :( It really ruined my mood for the whole night. I really need to get a camera. Hmm, i shall put it in my wish list. Santa Claus, please get one for me in this Christmas! :) I want, Sony camera! Lol. Thian, you know which. ;)

the welcoming dance

mimi.mas.fiona.agnes
(1st night)

fiona.agnes
(1st night)

i like this:)

The girls :D
(2nd night)

some pictures from this week...

CATS! Can't they stay away stay away STAY AWAY?
Why would they them stay in the hostel? :(

foot prints on the window. SpiderCat? lol.

foot prints on chair. -.-

Oopss! I went back home to sleep illegally for a few times.

Tomorrow will be the start of next week. I hope it will be a fun week. Mrs Lim is still going to teach. *headache* Gotta hand in newsletter. I will be designing. Let you see the cover first. :)

So, how's it? :)

Life is too short.
Yet i have so many things i want to do.

For the guys...

true true true! xD

hao jiu bu jian!

you know what is stressed out? tick. it's like that.
It's as though you have been squeezed, squeezed by the assignments and dead lines until you feel like you are gonna explode any time. Pff.

So it has been... quite some time. Didnt really feel the urge to blog. Well, there was a few times i wanted to post something, but got carried away by other things. Life is busy. I cant really recall what had happened. Anyways, i'll just post whatever that comes into my mind now.

celebration for the October babies!


exhibition display in the library


something which i made out of reused papers.


Patrick says "HI!"


to keep yourself healthy :)


i love the striking orange 'balls'

Okay, we had our sports days just days ago. Guess what? I took part. Yeap, for the FIRST time after the whole secondary school life passed. I ran for 100m. :) The day before it i went running without warming up. As the consequence.... (i bet you all know lah) the next day - the day i was supposed to run, my whole legs' muscles are painful. =.= The first sprinting wasn't good. I got the 3rd. but not overall. However, for the relay, haha, that one, i'm so satisfied and proud of it. :) I was running in the rain, passing the baton. hey, it's really fun joining in sports days. I regret for not taking any event while i was in sec school back then. Aiks. Such a talented runner yet didnt run. What a waste! XD wuisehhh... hahaha..nola. And Hey! it was really fun running under the rain!!! haha.

Last night ah, i didnt even sleep. Yeah, coming back from sports days, not resting but doing assignments. Really. i hate this kind of life. i mean, it's not on the track lah.

i'm lying on my comfy bed, typing with one of my eyes closed. o.- SLEEEEEPY...haha. Just now went to dance party in Swinburne. Pretty cool. i love watching ppl dance modern dance. hehe.But the place, frankly speaking, i dont like the atmosphere there. i left earlier with ruby.

What's coming up next week?

Musical Night - Tues & Wed (27-28/10)
Annual Dinner "Masquerade" - Fri (30/10)
Halloween! - Sat (31/10)

Oh ya, i finally installed Photoshop CS3 into my lappy. FINALLY. after soooo many so many attepmts. I have almost given up. Thank God! I was in time to finish my poster.

the poster made by me. for "Suicide Note"

k... going to bed! Ooh, raining, natural air-con:) haha.
Night~

just continue playing the song k? :)

there's no IF.

没有如果

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果如果
如果如果如果最后变路过
我们不能接受
错过错过
错过错过错过我们一定能过
不会一错再错

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

别怕太快了别怕失去我

如果我说爱我没有如果

错过就过你是不是会难过

若如果拿来当借口

那爱是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱没有如果

真的爱我就放手一搏

还想什么还怕什么

快牵起我的手
快牵起我的手...

so? :)

a busy week

ALRIGHT, I SHALL UPDATE A BIT. IT HAS BEEN A BUSY WEEK. :(

*CAPS LOCK - OFF*

a quick flash back...

Monday, we had our Social Studies exhibition. It was quite well done. :) The movie i made was worth it! :) Oh, and then in class, i helped Myli to remove the splinter which got into her finger. Wan recorded it. It was funny. And i looked like a surgeon. :) Hmm.

Tuesday night, TCF, as usual :) That night a lecturer was sharing with us. Learnt a lot from her sharing. To the people out there: quit DOTA before it's too late! She shared a lot. Kinda gave a wake up knock on me (not on Dota la, other topics). Come to think of it, it's time to look into my life too. I need at least 15 mins a day to date GOD. :) I am guilty cuz most of the time, i have been too busy for Him.

Then Wednesday we had this Pertandingan Berbalas Pantun. Whooo, it was the very first time i saw this kind of competition. Evening, played basketball in the rain. Then went straight into a room with fan. Aiks! It was cold. At night, we went to TAZA for the final. I was there doing my assignments with a headache.

Thursday, we watched Hitch during our Social Studies. That movie was so hilarious! Thursday's timetable was not that tight. Phew. :) So i had enough time to finish my assignments. ^^
Hey guys, take note on this: when a girl is fiddling with her keys after you've walked her to the gate/door means - - she wants a KISS! :D

Friday, all the assignments due this week were handed in! Hooray! However, at night we couldnt go back. Again! Argh. I'll just have to abide to these horrible and crazy rules in here. No choice, i've already sold my soul. That evening we had BB test. First part of it only. Guess what, i chose the wrong one for test till i was so nervous! :(

Saturday (this morning) we had gotong-royong. Don't you think there are just too many activities in here? ~.~ Pff. And it's the gotong-royong that i hurt my poor thumb. >.< I drove back home just now. Not bad eh. :) But having a lil problem with pressing the handbrake as i've hurt my thumb.

aiks...wanted to buy something to pamper myself in this weekend, but maybe...i can't do so. Weekends are always sooo fast. Oh yea, i showed the video of me singing 傻瓜 during the competition the other day to mom and dad. Guess what?

"Why i can't hear your voice? Only the singer's voice can be heard besides the guy's voice."

WOooOT! The only girl's voice is MINE, so that makes my voice = the singer's voice? In other words, i sang so well that they thought it actually belongs to the singer's voice? xD haha. That's a compliment. We'll be free in NOvember. And by then, my coursemates and i could go sing K often. We'll be free when others are having exams. Envy them, they can have exams! :(

Next week...

Tuesday night would be Pajamas Night! Woot! it would be my very first time wearing pajamas. ngehehe. Wonder how will i look like. xD Gotta borrow a set of pajamas from someone. Wednesday, continue BB test (shooting balls), then competition. xS Hopefully i can do well. A poem presentation due next week. Doing "Suicide Note", haven't a clue what's the poem about. Now this would be hard. Besides the poem, i'll have to hand in my Reflection Essay for Social Studies.

Aaah, i miss doing something which i really enjoy.

why are we always trying to be someone else?

lost in reverie.

a girl and a wall

抱怨，有说不尽的抱怨；
不满，有吐不尽的不满；
失落，有数不尽的失落；
悲伤，有咽不尽的悲伤。

At times, i feel that i woke up every morning, the first thing i did was to torture myself with freezing cold water. I knew it was so cold till my nails turn purple, yet i just love it. Why? 'Cuz that will wake me up, "AGNES! You are living in reality. NEVER EVER FORGET THAT." Very true isn't it? I gotta remind myself every day so that i won't forget it.


I met a girl the other day. This girl, looked fairly good outside, she looked happy. You can tell no sadness from her face. She was so busy doing something, putting a lot of efforts in it. I walked closer, patted on her shoulder, "What are you busy with, girl?"

She turned to me, looking rather lost. She looked at me blankly. Soon, her tears were battling in her eyes. It seemed that she wasn't doing something that she likes, that she wanted to. Yet for some reasons she just forced herself to do it. I could see her pain, i could even FEEL the pain. The unfathomable pain that she's bearing on the shoulder which i just gave a pat on.

I gazed into her eyes, trying to fix the incomplete puzzles i had on her thought. Her eyes were filled with things but spoke nothing. It's as though i was gazing at a sophisticated and complicated picture of...everything, yet see nothing at all.

It took a long time for her to reply my question. It's as if my question took her a long time to find all the reasons from her brain so that she could give me a brilliant answer that would make me salute her.

"I don't know what i am doing. I don't know. I don't know."

Three words. Yet it took her so long to answer me. Now, that explained the tears and the picture i saw through her eyes. She's doing something she didn't know why she had to do it. She's doing something with full effort, BUT not knowing WHY she's doing that. She's doing something with full effort, BUT not knowing WHY she's doing that! Obviously, she's lost. She's completely lost.

She didn't know why on earth was she in such place, to do such thing and to live such way. She might have had a dream before, but i guess she had lost the dream. She dared not to dream the dream. It must have been a pain for her to talk about her dream. It must have been hard for her to live like this. She had a compass before, apparently she had it lost. She has no guide now, no direction, just merely following the way wherever the wind directs her. She lost her senses. Bitter is sweet and dark is light.

Poor girl.

She added on, "They lied. They lied me with their empty promises, they said they would care. In fact, they left me in this world. They have gone to the moon, or they might have even landed in Jupiter now."

I kept silence.

"I used to think that everything was so possible. If i put in all my efforts, there's no doubt i will reap in return. But the reality gave me a brute knock - WAKE UP, GIRL! It's just reality and you - no fairy tales!"

I didn't know what to say.

"How painful it is, to live a life you don't even know what you are doing? How stupid it is, to find yourself sitting in a corner of the crowd, knowing you could do loads of things, but you just don't know why you aren't doing them?"

I wanted to say something but my lips were zipped.

"Having the loss of the direction, makes life meaningless. You have no idea where you are off to, you don't know why are you doing the things you are doing now. You tried to ask the people around you and you got lots of matter-of-fact answers, which don't help a thing at all."

I tried to unzip my mouth.

"What is all this? Life is so unfair."

I wanted to say 'Life is never fair.' when she said,

"LIFE IS NEVER FAIR. Right? Everyone would be telling me that. I'm so sick of it!"

I zipped back my mouth.

"We are just puppets. Puppets of life. When it's time to smile, we fake a smile if we don't feel like smiling. It's for the audience after all. When we feel like weeping, we just hold it in cuz they audience wouldn't like it."

Now that life has turned into a show? I thought.

"Nevermind. It's useless telling you all this. You are only a wall. You don't understand. You know nothing! Goodbye."

I tried to console her, but she had packed her things and left.

spices!

Double meet ups

It's been a tiring week. Classes from 730am till 4pm in the evening. still berpuasa. no lunch everyday. Busy busy. Tiring!!! However, i promised myself i must spare some minutes starring at the sky. So... i caught a bright red sun. i don't like the picture, cuz the sun's position is not beautiful. xD was rushing back to hostel. so didnt find a good angle.

Wednesday: Morning - Basketball. Got a sudden Ujian Kecerdasan. We were asked to run around the field in 3 minutes to get an A. Wahhh... i got stamina but not speed lo. Plus, the field is not small at all. But then what to do? Went to run without warming myself up enough. Ran till 60% of it i started to feel running outta breathe, suffocating. Dunno why, my breathing became so intense, so loud. (And this reminds me, I had a lil asthma record when i was young.) NOt only having difficulty in breathing, but also both of my legs were extremely tired. I could hear them calling for stop. Despite all these, i forced myself to run as fast as i could, pushed myself to the finishing line. After i reached the finishing line, i fell and sat at the roadside. Both of my legs were having cramp. Now i finally experienced how a cramp after extreme running is like. I tried to stand up but fell back on ground again. After that, the girl coming after me, fell at the moment reaching. Her face was so pale. I tried to stand up to help her but i didnt have the energy to. The guys carried her to the court. I forced myself up again to walk to the court. Found her a file to fan her and helped her massage her legs. (something i missed doing.)

After that, i had Karaoke singing for Gamelan club. Last minute dragged a guy to accompany me singing, cuz i still didnt have my voice back. Was sick. :( Anyways, yeap... i think overall was okay. Frankly speaking, i was shocked by myself. hehe

Night: helped with the decoration for Hari Raya open day which was on Friday. Jac, Mas, Fiona, Vic, Siaw Yen and i went out to help them to decorate.

agnes' style~ haha

the little 'ketupat' at my 'A' hehe.. ^^

the design before...... something saddening happened. :'(

it was past midnight, we put aside our assignments, came out to help them. It was a fun night doing things with the girls. we slept around 3am...

Thursday night, i did our scrapbook for literature with the help of my group members. Jac, Vic and fiona came to my room. it was so crowded. And Fiona was trying to sing K in my room. LOL. that was a great night of assignments chiong-ing. Didn't sleep at all. (so now you understand why i need rest so badly?)

front cover

First page: Phoenix (the main character of the short story we are doing) in a pocket. :)


this angle nice :)


place your Phoenix.

Went to McD this afternoon to meet up with Jac, Wan, Fiona, Vic them. For assignments. (yeah right) haha.. but then, i didnt do anything at all. Why? Cuz i bumped into my ex schoolmates! Miss them miss them! So i had my lunch with them.