Holiday #4

12.11.12

As for today... Nothing much happened, but many things struck my mind. Suddenly feel tensed. I guess this holiday is again not for me to enjoy. :( I went to hospital for patch test and now i have patches sticking on my back. The doctor said no sports for these five days. Boo-hoo!

And very recently, i just received a news. DEEP SIGH. I hope, and i really really pray that everything will be fine. God will take care of all right? 

Tomorrow, i am supposed to attend some Christian teachers' sharing at a pastor's office in the morning. However, i have an emergency duty which i offer to take it myself and it clashes with the sharing. I feel torn between two decisions. I know, first is i have promised i would go and they seemed so anticipated for the sharing tomorrow. But what suddenly held me back is i need to be somewhere else, with someone tomorrow morning. :( It's important, very important. Actually i might still have another one with my lecturers and Fiona tomorrow morning for our drama t-shirts. However, that one i can just let Fiona handle it as it is not a very big concern. I texted the pastor to inform him i can't make it tomorrow, but until now i still receive no reply. They must be very disappointed with me right now. 

Then, there are also more tuition classes coming. I really don't know if i could handle it but i really need to work.

Somehow everything just looks complicated to me today. :(

Father God, calm my heart.

Holiday #3

10.11.12

On Saturday I had an awesome morning with kolomee and friends. After that, we went to Kuching International Airport to send our friends off. I always don't know the feeling to be sent off by someone from the airport (Of course, not for travelling purposes, just you know, you meet airport because of study). 

Before going back home, we stopped by Boulevard to grab some good stuff for my brother and sister. A birthday present and two Christmas presents! I hope they love them! :)

At night, went out with a special friend to celebrate 10-11-12 at Mr Ho's Fine Food. The ambiance was superb and the food was really delicious! We both prepared presents to give on that day and yes, i got a mini Lego white grand piano. It's just super adorable!! Apart from that, i also received some extra presents. Wow...all are meaningful ones. Thanks! :)

The long stretched corridor with red curtains.

 

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Holiday #2

It's just the second day of holiday and i'm already soo drained out! I didn't do much today but yes, i AM exhausted. 

Today we had a final gathering for this semester before everyone went back home. It was good to be in the chapel again. :) It's was even re-assuring to hear sharing from brothers and sisters in Christ. Two of my seniors did extremely well in exam. One thing which struck me after the sharing: "If you honour God, God will honour you". It's very true - - God sees our heart! I wish i could be like them too. But i feel like these few semesters, as the lecture method changed, i feel like i've become lazier. :( I gotta work harder next sem!

The whole afternoon was spent with Miley. We had some quality chatting time, and did a lil shopping. Before sending Miley to her uncle's house, i brought her to grotto to pray. It is the place i love so much cuz i always feel peaceful there. That was also a place where many fervent prayers were lifted up. Come to think of it, i haven't visited that place for quite some time too. After praying, Miley said it was really good, she felt so peaceful, so joyful. WOW! Praise the Lord! :)

Tonight, I actually wanted to sleep early today but i received a call and a friend of mine asked me to go out of the house. I saw him waiting at the gate with presents. After receiving the presents, i felt, and feel terribly bad. I really don't want him to do so much. :( He even handmade something...it's like...i really can't take those, and i don't want to. But i guess as i've already grown older in age, and i begin to feel reluctant to reject people straight away as i understand how hurt it will. On the other hand, to just ignore it will hurt him equally bad too as he won't know my clear signal. I just need the courage to break his heart, i guess. :/

That's all for today.

Seriously need to recharge.

Holidays, welcome in!

It's FINALLY holiday! I've been waiting for this moment for so long! And it's finally here! I already have a long long list of what to do in this holiday, but i think mostly will be working, giving tuition classes, attending music classes, meeting up with friends, sports, reading novels, watching movies, sleeping, and travelling!

The exam was pretty difficult. =/ But anyway, it's over now, so bye and throw it off my head. It's time to relax. I deserve it! Two months holidays! :) Thank God for it!!! :)

Holiday - Day 1

Hello Holiday!

I went out to hunt for lovely presents after meeting with Mdm Angie and the cast and committee members for the upcoming drama next semester. I was supposed to go to this Tribal Scoops (which i've googled and the food just looked heavenly tempting!) this afternoon with sis Grace. However, it's been put off to next week which is a better idea as it won't be rush! So, i had more time to hunt for my presents for a dinner sometime soon! 

Preparing presents is such a wonderful feeling!

At night, went out for an impromptu dinner at Sharing Planet. The food was as usual, awesome and large portion. We really ate till our heart's content! Thank You for the food, Lord! Everyone praised that my dress looked pretty. :D And i proudly told everyone it was given by my cousin, and it was like, for more than 10 years dy! I just added the belt and i guess belt made wonders? :P 

A great start for a holiday!

How much is enough?

How much is enough for you to see that i'm trying to help you too?
How much is enough to show you that i really want to do my best part...
Never had i wanted to make you feel bad.
:(

I'm sorry.

Tears...to JOY!

Did one of the craziest things during study week. 1130pm, felt sleepy so headed to the bed. On the bed, i continued reading my novel before the real sleepiness set in....but ended up, spending the whole night until almost dawn reading and crying (and it's like crying really badly, and at some of the point it was hard to stop). Stopped then cried as the sad part appeared, stopped and cried... What a night of tears!

Then the wonderful thing is this morning i woke up to chirping of birds! Feel so wonderful despite the awful night (which i can't explain why i was so emotional, perhaps kinda related the characters to some people around me). 

In short, it reminded me how sad last night was and how beautiful the morning is today! From tears to JOY! It's another beautiful day given by God. 

Are you breathing?

If yes, GIVE THANKS! 

And live today to the fullness, live it as a gift to God.

The novel which won the most tearul novel, so far!

Reflection on the novel 'The Best of Me' by Nicholas Sparks:

What Tuck has written in the letter for Dawson and Amanda really touched me. Dealing with relationship, some may find ourselves lost, stuck in between choices, and sometimes, even disappointed for whatever choices we have made in the past. And often than not, we make the not-so-right decision when we are confused.

The love between Tuck and his wife, Clara was also a touching love story as love continued on even when one passed away, Tuck could still feel her presence every time whenever he embraced in the memories of them together. And their love soothed the pain Tuck had to go through after the loss of his dearly loved wife.

There is really love that keeps to its promise when one said "I give you the best of me".

There could be a person whom claimed that he loves you, and he will do until the end, only loving you.

There are people whose right to love and live with their true loves is taken away just because of social status, or even family history. 

There is also love when you know you could stay to give the person you love the best he/she needs, yet at the same time the best for him/her or you is for you to walk away.

The ending... 

(i leave it for you, don't wanna be a spoiler! :P)