Long hair.

My hair is really long already! I just noticed how long it has grown after Gracie took this pic. :)

But i will cut it after Mount KK trip. :)

Funny.

Life is just so funny.

I just wanna walk away and leave everything behind.

You would only come to realize how precious something/somebody is when you lose that something/somebody.

It's so true. So true.

How are you?

I will be sitting for my final semester exam starting on 19th May next week. How's the preparation? I would have to answer you frankly and guiltily that i haven't done anything much. I tried to find the time to study but it would either be i had other activities on, or i was too tired and sleepy by then. I seriously need to work this out.

My life is shortened again by one day! Yeah, i promised myself i won't stay up late doing work again because it brings detrimental effects to my health (without me knowing it). But you can tell from the dull skin, grumpy mood and low immune system which follow the sleepless night. Beauty sleep is crucial for pretty lady! >< Heehee. Well, this time, i couldn't sleep, not because of work.

Crazy! Last night i was thinking about lots of things. Looking at my pity revision progress and things which happened lately, i suddenly realized i have a lot of things i need to solve, hopefully without further hurting anyone. I wonder if i have done the wrong thing. Why did i let it start anyway? It really reflects my immaturity.

There are a lot of things which i would want to share when i have the chance.
1) Sports Day 2011
2) Mistakes
3) Dilemma


It feels so nice to be connected to friends again. Had a talk with a friend last night, shared the main problem which i am facing recently. I totally enjoyed the whole chatting. That's why we always need someone to cheer us on and give us a push or an affirmation when we feel troubled. An amazing friend could magically do the trick! :) I'm grateful for all the friends i have, those near me, those far far away from me.

I have decided that i want to let myself enjoy what i love. Being with friends and enjoy my hobbies. Exploring the world and meeting new friends. I just don't want to be tied to any additional responsibilities. I realized i can't take it. (Unless i could divide myself into many Agnes-es, then probably, i would have time for all)

Alright, my revision progress is really making me worried. So, i might disappear for a few weeks, or i'll be inactive. :) I gotta concentrate in my revision now.

I need some personal space.
I need a break.

Mount Santubong

Yeeeha! I did it, for the second time! ;)

Connected.

All humans, we are connected. By love, by pain, and sometimes even by tragedies or events. Each one of us travels a very specific and unique path, yet we are linked by experiences and emotions.

In this connectedness, there is life.

成长

怎么突然间觉得越来越多自己很想做的事情都不能做了？ 生活中好像加了很多其他的东西。 感觉上很矛盾，怎么会越来越大，自由就越来越小。 我不喜欢这种被绑着，能让自己快乐的事都做不到。 为什么要这样对待自己呢？ 为什么不让自己快乐点呢？

我也很想啊，但是就是不能。 无能为力！ 有心无力啊！ 为何。。。 责任感，责任。。。

上帝啊，教导我该如何是好呢？
真的很累了。。。

We're in this together!

These few days, I just felt so spiritually dry. I was lost, afraid, frustrated, anxious and disappointed at the same time. What a combination of all the negative feelings! I felt that i could no longer cope and adapt with changes like i could before. When things went awry, i just couldn't handle it anymore. And so i fell, i fell out of track.

Stress finds it way to our everyday life, bringing along with it unhappiness and anxiety. Busyness does the same thing too; it ties us up and buries us down. The main reason why I was frustrated and unhappy was because I always tend to expect too much from myself. And when one or two of them are not achieved (or achieved, but not excellent enough) i will sink into great disappointment. When i failed to do something which i should, i lost the enthusiasm to continue it. When everything did not happen the way i wanted it to be, i shut myself off, from everyone.

But hey, here's the amazing and wonderful part. When I was on the verge of breaking down and giving up, He was already working in His ways. I knew it was time to talk to God. I knew i had to talk to God seriously about the problems and worries that are bugging me. Panicked, worried, and frustrated, my heart cried, 'Lord, i need You!'. And so just now, i pushed away all the books and opened the bible. (After all, i could not really study much with that state of mind. I just couldn't seem to absorb anything i studied in.)

And it worked! God spoke to me, and He made me reflect on the days when I was sitting for my SPM. How He comforted my weary mind. How He brought me through. How He fought together with me through the battle. And what glory and success we achieved when we did it together. Likewise, i should now too, continue to TRUST IN HIM.

It is important to constantly stay connected to God. It's only through that, He will show us what to do.

God, we're in this together!

You will never let me fight alone,
for men are weak when we depend on our own strength.
The strength must come from You.
Amen!