How are you?

I will be sitting for my final semester exam starting on 19th May next week. How's the preparation? I would have to answer you frankly and guiltily that i haven't done anything much. I tried to find the time to study but it would either be i had other activities on, or i was too tired and sleepy by then. I seriously need to work this out.

My life is shortened again by one day! Yeah, i promised myself i won't stay up late doing work again because it brings detrimental effects to my health (without me knowing it). But you can tell from the dull skin, grumpy mood and low immune system which follow the sleepless night. Beauty sleep is crucial for pretty lady! >< Heehee. Well, this time, i couldn't sleep, not because of work.

Crazy! Last night i was thinking about lots of things. Looking at my pity revision progress and things which happened lately, i suddenly realized i have a lot of things i need to solve, hopefully without further hurting anyone. I wonder if i have done the wrong thing. Why did i let it start anyway? It really reflects my immaturity.

There are a lot of things which i would want to share when i have the chance.
1) Sports Day 2011
2) Mistakes
3) Dilemma


It feels so nice to be connected to friends again. Had a talk with a friend last night, shared the main problem which i am facing recently. I totally enjoyed the whole chatting. That's why we always need someone to cheer us on and give us a push or an affirmation when we feel troubled. An amazing friend could magically do the trick! :) I'm grateful for all the friends i have, those near me, those far far away from me.

I have decided that i want to let myself enjoy what i love. Being with friends and enjoy my hobbies. Exploring the world and meeting new friends. I just don't want to be tied to any additional responsibilities. I realized i can't take it. (Unless i could divide myself into many Agnes-es, then probably, i would have time for all)

Alright, my revision progress is really making me worried. So, i might disappear for a few weeks, or i'll be inactive. :) I gotta concentrate in my revision now.

I need some personal space.
I need a break.

Mount Santubong

Yeeeha! I did it, for the second time! ;)

Connected.

All humans, we are connected. By love, by pain, and sometimes even by tragedies or events. Each one of us travels a very specific and unique path, yet we are linked by experiences and emotions.

In this connectedness, there is life.

成长

怎么突然间觉得越来越多自己很想做的事情都不能做了？ 生活中好像加了很多其他的东西。 感觉上很矛盾，怎么会越来越大，自由就越来越小。 我不喜欢这种被绑着，能让自己快乐的事都做不到。 为什么要这样对待自己呢？ 为什么不让自己快乐点呢？

我也很想啊，但是就是不能。 无能为力！ 有心无力啊！ 为何。。。 责任感，责任。。。

上帝啊，教导我该如何是好呢？
真的很累了。。。

We're in this together!

These few days, I just felt so spiritually dry. I was lost, afraid, frustrated, anxious and disappointed at the same time. What a combination of all the negative feelings! I felt that i could no longer cope and adapt with changes like i could before. When things went awry, i just couldn't handle it anymore. And so i fell, i fell out of track.

Stress finds it way to our everyday life, bringing along with it unhappiness and anxiety. Busyness does the same thing too; it ties us up and buries us down. The main reason why I was frustrated and unhappy was because I always tend to expect too much from myself. And when one or two of them are not achieved (or achieved, but not excellent enough) i will sink into great disappointment. When i failed to do something which i should, i lost the enthusiasm to continue it. When everything did not happen the way i wanted it to be, i shut myself off, from everyone.

But hey, here's the amazing and wonderful part. When I was on the verge of breaking down and giving up, He was already working in His ways. I knew it was time to talk to God. I knew i had to talk to God seriously about the problems and worries that are bugging me. Panicked, worried, and frustrated, my heart cried, 'Lord, i need You!'. And so just now, i pushed away all the books and opened the bible. (After all, i could not really study much with that state of mind. I just couldn't seem to absorb anything i studied in.)

And it worked! God spoke to me, and He made me reflect on the days when I was sitting for my SPM. How He comforted my weary mind. How He brought me through. How He fought together with me through the battle. And what glory and success we achieved when we did it together. Likewise, i should now too, continue to TRUST IN HIM.

It is important to constantly stay connected to God. It's only through that, He will show us what to do.

God, we're in this together!

You will never let me fight alone,
for men are weak when we depend on our own strength.
The strength must come from You.
Amen!

Hello May!

May is here...
Exams are near...
Time to fear...

Hahaha, yeah, two more weeks to my finals. I wanna do very well this time, at least to pull up my mark. :S hmm.

Jia you!

Tennis . Jogging . Easter

Finally it was a Saturday with TENNIS! At first it rained and i thought we wouldn't be able to play. Thank GOD the rain stopped! So we played! I was smiling throughout the tennis game. Imagine, how long have i not played tennis!! haha. My skill still maintained! In fact, it's so awesome that i actually hit some extremely beautiful strokes! Whee whee~ TENNIS!

Later in the evening i went jogging. Yup, it's surprising, isn't it? That i actually included jogging to my list of sports. Yeah, well, i have to jog everyday from now on to boost up my stamina. I will be taking 1500m in the coming sports day. It was a crazy decision made. I just wanted to challenge myself, but when i actually tried it - goodness - i think i really made a wrong decision. :( But since i've already written my name, might as well try my very best and go for it! I've started my jogging training since Wednesday. It was really tiring! Especially the first lap, it was difficult cuz i had to adjust my breathing to the pumping of the heart. And most of the time, i got mild chest pain. But once i adjusted myself, the jogging was easy. Perseverance and endurance are greatly tested here. Whoosh! I wonder what will happen after two weeks. I only have another two weeks to prepare myself for the event.

Tomorrow i'm going to let my students do some crafts, hope they will like it. It's just very simple crafts, didn't have the time to prepare a better one. I was busy with assignments, but now i'm finally free from assignments! No more assignments for this semester! Hooray! However, I still got other work to do: building up portfolios, ISL, forum... EXAMS... EXAMS!

Life is fun! ha ha ha. (Trying to be very very optimistic! Yeah, gotta use my time wisely.)

Rejoice in God's abundant blessings everyday!

Two years? No problem.