Tomorrow

When i don't wish for tomorrow to come, i find it very hard to sleep. :(

But Jesus told us to cast our fears and anxieties on Him.

Be still. :)

Post-assignments Entry!

Finally! At last! The day i have been waiting for is here! Let's see, i had four sleepless nights in just two weeks. (including last night) And i slept late every night, around 3am.

Four assignments! All done!

Last night, after swimming, i was rushing through my research paper. It was my very first time doing a research paper. It was pretty tough, i got lost for a few times and even thought of giving up. Luckily i didn't! Thank God that He granted me wisdom and perseverance to endure the whole night and produced a, um, i would say that it's brilliant (for the first time, must give encouragement!) research paper. And for the first time too, i did all the citations and referencing myself! :) Agnes, you deserve a round of applause for the effort. :)

I could have gone to bed and grab some sleep since class starts at 930am today, but it's just an hour plus only, so might as well sprinkle something here. :) I wanted to drop by to post something, but i was always caught up with something else.

I somehow feel that the time passed rather fast these two weeks, perhaps it's because of the assignments, research, and all those... or perhaps. it's because of... :) Anyway, i think i need to slow down my pace, i've been so eager to walk so fast that i'm afraid i might miss the beautiful scenery along the road. :) It's time to stop running, and stroll...

... or eventually stop.
for awhile.

I'm tired now nonetheless feeling very relieved. At last, the load is taken off. :) Today, later, after lecture, i would be going out with friends to do what a too-free-student should do. :) Karaoke, window shopping, steamboat... ♥

Something about love.

这样下去， 好吗？
I don't know...

No,

i will not give up.

I will continue to run the race!

Drown!

Exactly! I'm drown in piles of work! :(

Lord, i need more strength! Grant me perseverance to endure all this.
Thank You, Lord!


Fourteen more days! ;)

The BEST

"You may not know me, but i know everything about you." Psalm 139:1
"I know when you sit down and when you rise up." Psalm 139:2
"I am familiar with all your ways." Psalm 139:3

Only You know us the best. :)

His mighty plans.

I had a lot to write last night when i was having some problem falling asleep. My mind was thinking about too many things and even i did count the numbers over and over again, it was to no avail. So in the end, i slept at 5am. And woke up few hours later. It was raining in the morning so no tennis. :( Kinda miss sports.

Anyways, recently i just feel that life is so amazingly wonderful, when you put your trust in God, and let Him guide you. A lot of wonderful and unexpected things happened. And i know for sure that my faith in Him has grown a lil more stronger! When i feel like i'm close to God, when i know that i could rely fully on Him, there's this fountain of happiness in my heart and constantly nourishing my heart. Thank You, Lord. :) He always has a reason behind everything. Even though at first it may not seem to be something we could comprehend, but just trust Him and believe Him, He will reveal the reason when His time comes. By then, you would be amazed and touched by His plans for you. It is all in His plans. :)



Often when we have an image in our mind of what we want to be happening, and when we see that it isn't we think nothing is happening.

It will be a wonderful day ahead! :)

Panic button pressed!

I always wanted to sleep early, but i always can't. I'm now stealing a bit of my time to sprinkle something here. Suddenly feel the urge to write, though i didn't feel like writing anything too personal. But well, here it goes.

My course doesn't go too well as i expected. Well, there is certainly a huge gap between Foundation level and Degree level. Foundation was fun, but the beginning of Degree year has already given me a hard time. At first i told myself to hold on and persevere. However, it's been almost two months and i still can't adapt quite well to it. And now, i feel like learning has become more like something i have to do for the sake to pass the exam. Where's the meaning in learning? But don't worry, i'm still searching for it. I hope i won't give up that easily, because whatever that i feel now makes me really wanna surrender. To add on to the problems i am already facing right now, here came all the assignments which need to be handed in within a month. These assignments are no longer like the one we had, where i really enjoyed doing them especially Literature. Now, everything is more academic. Take for instance, the contents required are deeper and the format of the assignments became so fixed. I missed making scrapbook! :'(

I feel like i'm breaking anytime soon. I hope that i'm in my bed now. I hope i could sleep early. There's too much inner struggles in me. I don't wanna fight anymore. And another thing, i've been breathing for 19 years and almost 2 months, there's just one thing i never really learnt - time management. I'm too busy for things going on and on and on. :(

Anyways, lately i am really a lil bit stressed out so i did the thing i always did - to go closer to God literally. I want myself to be influenced and encouraged by seeing how others live in Him. How much faith they have in Him in times of distress. I just need to see Him through some other people sometimes. I just came back from a gathering at Dr Wong's house. I heard some sharing about how those young people in the Old Testament kept their faith in God. Daniel and his friends, how they overcame the temptations, and finally glorified God with their strong and firm belief in Him. Some sharing here...

Many times when we pray, we waited for a very long time until we finally gave in to temptations which are luring us. Actually, when we pray, God answers. The answers will be: Yes, No, or Wait. Often, we cannot wait that long enough to see what He actually reserved for us. Well, i think now i have finally submitted my life to Him again, and let Him have the steering wheel of my life. He will bring me to place He has reserved for me long time ago. Lord, i believe You have heard my prayer. I will wait until the day You show me Your answer. I will wait. :)

Apart from that, I know i have not been a very excellent example to glorify Him for the past, but i hope i will be, starting from this moment. I know i have said words which hurt people, or behaved the way i shouldn't have. But for now, i just want to set my focus on Him and please Him alone. I will learn to forgive people as how He has forgiven me. At times we are deeply emotionally crushed when people developed a negative perception about us when we are actually doing the right thing (but perhaps just some flaws at the wrong timing). But what i have learnt is that, we don't live to please the world. We are here, to please God, to live in His way, to love Him, to show people about Him. As long as we are doing the right thing, there's nothing to be bothered when things like that happened. The main lesson is, we learn from it and move on. At the end of the day, God judges us based on our whole life, not just part of the life where we made a mistake.

Another thing, we really need a spiritual friend(s). They will provide the support we need when we feel weak. I'm grateful that i have found brothers and sisters in Christ who are always there for me. Well, that's what these special brothers and sisters are for - to cheer each other on in faith when life gets hard. Sometimes they will just be the ones who remind you about God when you almost forget about Him.

So yeah, that's what i wanted to share. It's past 1am now and i need to sleep now. Lecture starts at 830am until 415pm. After that would be tennis and a CNY gathering at school. It's gonna be another hectic day. Lord, thank You for today, and hope You'll continue to guide me throughout my day tomorrow. :)

Know your focus.

Model: My Gracie. :)