I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone
I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone
On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded
I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Hello October!
Hello October, it has been a while!!! I've never expected i would abandon the blog this long. I thought of recording down every life's wonderful, or sad happenings. At least there is something for me to read on my life. Or at least i could inspire people through my life. But, really terribly sorry. I was so busy with things. :(
Anyway, gonna poof again.
Before that, i want to say this:
I really thank God for all the things i have received so freely for Him, and all the times He has forgiven me. :) The awesome friends and people He put into my life. They way He makes people connected to one another - through family, siblings, friendship, bananaboat *wink to my banana partner*, special relationship, special friends... and all. :) God is indeed good. He has His plans.
Anyway, gonna poof again.
Before that, i want to say this:
I really thank God for all the things i have received so freely for Him, and all the times He has forgiven me. :) The awesome friends and people He put into my life. They way He makes people connected to one another - through family, siblings, friendship, bananaboat *wink to my banana partner*, special relationship, special friends... and all. :) God is indeed good. He has His plans.
Keep trusting God!
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Reaching out...
Alright, today is a day off for me. No lecture the whole day. :) I know one week hasn't ended, but i really want to share this now. Right now, i'm filled with God's wondrous blessing and great love.
Well, to tell the truth, this hasn't been a very good week to start off with. Well, i've been very busy, been hurt, been depressed over something, been feeling really confused over things i can't comprehend...and more! It's actually an all-bad-and-nothing-good week! Hey, i think you should just put on that grumpy face and tell the world you are upset. Well, you think??? Nah, God made me realize something from all these. Something very important. :)
When i was confronted with waves of troubles, and i didn't know how to cope with all those calamities, and i felt like i was so useless... He knocked on my door, and sent me out on a mission.
He called me to comfort those who are troubled, complete those who feel incomplete, console those who are hurt, cheer up those who feel sad...
There's this brother in the chapel, whom i wanted to comfort him since the first time i heard of the death of his father for years. I know how he misses his father everyday, and how strong he has been all these years. However, i was very reluctant to approach him and to tell him things i wanted to tell him because i was afraid i would say the wrong thing. After all, i might not know how exactly he felt as i was not in his shoe, i may not even know the pain he has to swallow all this while, and all the responsibility that he has to bear, and all. But then... That night, he suddenly told me that he missed his father. At that very moment, there was this voice telling me, comfort him, go and comfort him, now. I paused for a few minutes, then i started to type out the things i wanted to tell him. It's so surprising that words just flowed out smoothly and perfectly. In the end he said, 'Wow.... thanks. I have never thought of this. Really. What you have said, just made me feel so happy now!' I was so touched too! Indescribable joy filled me instantly! Warm tears trickled down my cheek. Thank You, Lord! It really feels great to help someone to be happy again. To make someone feel complete and comforted. But all this wouldn't have happened if i didn't have the wisdom from God! God, thank You for using me! This is a mission.
That was the beginning of the week. This week, i've been trying to reach out to people and touch their lives. And yes, i saw some of my friends who were in need, and i tried whatever i could to comfort them. And GOD used me! This is a mission. He really used me. It's just very pleasing to see those sad faces turning into happy faces. I realized, in doing all this, God transferred my sorrow into a power to bring happiness to people. And, from the words i used to comfort others, i actually comforted myself! Isn't that wonderful? God really has His ways in comforting us.
Also, in this week, i've finally made it to the chapel! *breathe in* Yesterday! *heaps of joy!!!* You know i was so happy so happy that i made it there! That's something i wanted to do since the beginning of this semester. To sing praises to God in His house, with His children! :) Amen, praise the Lord! The whole day yesterday i was really filled with joy... It's really wonderful to start your day with God! :)
Recently too, God made me realize lots of wonderful people He has put in my life. Friends who are there to share your laughter, friends who are there to go crazy with you, friends who are there for you. :) Friends. Friendship. What a wonderful present God gave us. Friends are God's way of taking care of us. Since He can't be here literally to laugh/cry/go crazy/you-name-it with us, He sent us angels. That's our friends, and those people around you who love you and care for you. Even though some friends may be separated by distance, but you know for sure that when you need someone, you can find them at the right place where you know you can find them. How wonderful that is? ♥
Well, this week has indeed been a very special week for me. (i know it has not even ended yet, but i know tomorrow it will still be special, because He will make it special!) I hope i could continue to use my life to bless all the people around me, to give time for people who need it even when i could hardly squeeze time for myself, to cheer people up even when i myself is feeling down... And i hope in doing this, God will continue to guide me and teach me in His path so that i could walk steadily with Him, touch the lives of the people along the way, and learn to be stronger by letting Him use me in every way i could.
You see, when i was feeling like i'm nobody, God showed me i could be somebody. :)
I have a wonderful God!
Believe it or not, everyone is here for a special reason.
Well, to tell the truth, this hasn't been a very good week to start off with. Well, i've been very busy, been hurt, been depressed over something, been feeling really confused over things i can't comprehend...and more! It's actually an all-bad-and-nothing-good week! Hey, i think you should just put on that grumpy face and tell the world you are upset. Well, you think??? Nah, God made me realize something from all these. Something very important. :)
When i was confronted with waves of troubles, and i didn't know how to cope with all those calamities, and i felt like i was so useless... He knocked on my door, and sent me out on a mission.
When you feel like you are nobody,
God makes you to be somebody.
God makes you to be somebody.
He called me to comfort those who are troubled, complete those who feel incomplete, console those who are hurt, cheer up those who feel sad...
There's this brother in the chapel, whom i wanted to comfort him since the first time i heard of the death of his father for years. I know how he misses his father everyday, and how strong he has been all these years. However, i was very reluctant to approach him and to tell him things i wanted to tell him because i was afraid i would say the wrong thing. After all, i might not know how exactly he felt as i was not in his shoe, i may not even know the pain he has to swallow all this while, and all the responsibility that he has to bear, and all. But then... That night, he suddenly told me that he missed his father. At that very moment, there was this voice telling me, comfort him, go and comfort him, now. I paused for a few minutes, then i started to type out the things i wanted to tell him. It's so surprising that words just flowed out smoothly and perfectly. In the end he said, 'Wow.... thanks. I have never thought of this. Really. What you have said, just made me feel so happy now!' I was so touched too! Indescribable joy filled me instantly! Warm tears trickled down my cheek. Thank You, Lord! It really feels great to help someone to be happy again. To make someone feel complete and comforted. But all this wouldn't have happened if i didn't have the wisdom from God! God, thank You for using me! This is a mission.
That was the beginning of the week. This week, i've been trying to reach out to people and touch their lives. And yes, i saw some of my friends who were in need, and i tried whatever i could to comfort them. And GOD used me! This is a mission. He really used me. It's just very pleasing to see those sad faces turning into happy faces. I realized, in doing all this, God transferred my sorrow into a power to bring happiness to people. And, from the words i used to comfort others, i actually comforted myself! Isn't that wonderful? God really has His ways in comforting us.
Also, in this week, i've finally made it to the chapel! *breathe in* Yesterday! *heaps of joy!!!* You know i was so happy so happy that i made it there! That's something i wanted to do since the beginning of this semester. To sing praises to God in His house, with His children! :) Amen, praise the Lord! The whole day yesterday i was really filled with joy... It's really wonderful to start your day with God! :)
Recently too, God made me realize lots of wonderful people He has put in my life. Friends who are there to share your laughter, friends who are there to go crazy with you, friends who are there for you. :) Friends. Friendship. What a wonderful present God gave us. Friends are God's way of taking care of us. Since He can't be here literally to laugh/cry/go crazy/you-name-it with us, He sent us angels. That's our friends, and those people around you who love you and care for you. Even though some friends may be separated by distance, but you know for sure that when you need someone, you can find them at the right place where you know you can find them. How wonderful that is? ♥
Well, this week has indeed been a very special week for me. (i know it has not even ended yet, but i know tomorrow it will still be special, because He will make it special!) I hope i could continue to use my life to bless all the people around me, to give time for people who need it even when i could hardly squeeze time for myself, to cheer people up even when i myself is feeling down... And i hope in doing this, God will continue to guide me and teach me in His path so that i could walk steadily with Him, touch the lives of the people along the way, and learn to be stronger by letting Him use me in every way i could.
You see, when i was feeling like i'm nobody, God showed me i could be somebody. :)
I have a wonderful God!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Trust.
Actually,
sometimes you really just gotta believe what you feel.
and have faith. :)
Glad that everything is crystal clear now. :)
Thanks and sorry! :))))
sometimes you really just gotta believe what you feel.
and have faith. :)
Glad that everything is crystal clear now. :)
Thanks and sorry! :))))
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Darling, please be true...
I just wonder if what i'm feeling now is true. Sometimes, i felt the strong urge to ask, what actually the whole thing is about. However, everytime, i was held back by myself, asking, 'shouldn't you have faith, girl?' But what i've seen and heard now really told me otherwise. I started to doubt this feeling. I started to doubt if everything was true.
What i know,
what i don't know,
what i choose to know,
what others know,
what others made me know...
What i believe,
what i don't believe,
what i choose to believe,
what others believe,
what others made me believe...
It feels like i'm outside the picture, yet in the picture, somehow.
It feels like i'm painting the picture too, but not knowing every detail that we've painted.
There's just some part left unexplained. Do we need to clarify it?
How does it feel when you are in the picture yet when people are talking about the picture, you know nothing at all?
It feels exactly like you are actually out of the picture right?
What you've just made me believe, you have crushed it again with your own actions.
Darling, please be true.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
On the verge...
on the verge of breaking down...
Listen girl, no one can always be there for you.
So you gotta be strong yourself.
So you gotta be independent!
Do not ever ever rely on anyone else to comfort you cuz people may turn away...
people may get busy...
and people may change.
Listen girl, no one can always remain the same like the first day you know them.
As time passes, some feelings just disappeared.
As time passes, some things are just never the same anymore.
Listen girl, after you have cried, quickly wipe your tears away
for you shall not show that you are weak
especially in front of those people who have let you down.
Show them you are independent, you are strong on your own.
You must stand up, lift your chin up, and continue to walk proudly.
For you are you, the strong you, don't let anything else shatter your confidence.
There's no need for any sympathetic ears,
or an understanding shoulder...
You just have to be strong,
and fight on...
Listen girl, no one can always be there for you.
So you gotta be strong yourself.
So you gotta be independent!
Do not ever ever rely on anyone else to comfort you cuz people may turn away...
people may get busy...
and people may change.
Listen girl, no one can always remain the same like the first day you know them.
As time passes, some feelings just disappeared.
As time passes, some things are just never the same anymore.
Listen girl, after you have cried, quickly wipe your tears away
for you shall not show that you are weak
especially in front of those people who have let you down.
Show them you are independent, you are strong on your own.
You must stand up, lift your chin up, and continue to walk proudly.
For you are you, the strong you, don't let anything else shatter your confidence.
There's no need for any sympathetic ears,
or an understanding shoulder...
You just have to be strong,
and fight on...
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