PRAY

Now is already Sunday. The third week of 2011. It's 3am, but i can't sleep. So i was listening to Christian worship songs and someone introduced this. It really touched me. :')

Thinking through

What to do

You're searching every angle and point of view

Good advice, well rehearsed

Only seems to make matters worse

When you're at a dead end

Where can you go?

My friend, there's an answer I know

Pray, when the road is steep

Pray, when you're hope gets weak

Know the Father hears through

The silence and the tears you

Pray, when you don't know how

Pray, heaven's waiting now

And Jesus is just a breath away

Pray..

The deepest sighs Of the heart

Sometimes it's a struggle when we first start

To wrap our needs up in words

And trust that somehow we will be heard

Draw near, and know you are loved

God hears, and his heart is touched

Pray for the strength you're needin'

To go on believin'

No matter what you face

You'll have the wisdom and the grace to...

Pray, when the road is steep

Pray, when you're hope gets weak

Know the Father hears through

The silence and the tears you

Pray, when you don't know how

Pray, heaven's waiting now

And Jesus is just a breath away

Pray.

Pray, when the road is steep

Pray, when you're hope gets weak

Know the Father hears through

The silence and the tears you

Pray, when you don't know how

Pray, heaven's waiting now

And Jesus is just a breath away

Pray...

Pray, when the road is steep.

Pray, when you're hope gets weak.

Know the Father hears through.

The silence and the tears you.

Pray, when you don't know how.

Pray, heaven's waiting now.

And Jesus is just a breath away.

Pray...

This song really touched me. :')

The easiest, but the most powerful. :)

Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jFDsDCpzHKg

Back to school!

This is a song, la la la la, Agnes's song.

Gosh! The tune is so catchy that it got right into my mind, and continued jumping inside there. When i feel jovial, i will start singing it. hoho. This is a song, lalalala, Agnes's song! :)

Alright, suddenly feel like writing an entry. :) hehe. So about life, yeah it's fine so far. Give thanks! :) Bro went to NS, sis went to KL with friends, so there left mom, dad, Gracie and me. :) Hope everyone is doing fine.

First week of lecture wasn't that bad. However, i faced a lil difficulty adjusting myself to the brand new syllabus of the Degree year. It's so different and i am now still blur! =/ This Degree year is something i didn't come to expect. Well, attending lectures suddenly turns out less fun than before. :( No more Mrs Lim's LDS lessons. :( No more Miss Yus's fun LDV lessons. :( No more Miss Hannah's Social Studies lessons. :( No more, no more Mdm Angie's wonderful ES lessons! :'( Everything that i'm going to study in my Degree year became so serious. Literature doesn't give me the fun like before because now we're studying literature theories. Woah. All the serious stuff. I want Shakespeare, Why a Caged Bird Sings, The Mango Season, Just the Way Things Are, The Worn Path, Two Kinds...

But of course, it is not that bad too! :) I have some really good lecturers, humorous ones, cheerful ones, cute ones. hehe. It's not that bad after all. :) Yeah, the lecturers and lectures are not bad. The tutorial and ISLs are! X( Even though i happily said that the timetable for this sem seems to be very free, now i start to feel that it's totally the other way round! Lectures are less than the Foundation course, but the homework, the research are way more than last time. My part time job... :( My money! $

For last week, most of my afternoons were filled with tennis. Tennis! And hey! My partner said that i improved! :) Yay! Gotta train harder! By the way, my beloved got badly hurt the other day. I wanted to release the tension/disappointment/sadness (whatever feeling it was) after i received my result slip. So i played with my partner and guess what? The strings broke! That was really releasing tension! :P Then i got myself a substitute 'boyfriend' while my darling was still in the hospital. And i just fetched my darling back from hospital two days ago, he still looks handsome as he always is. :D Both rackets belonged to my daddy. hoho. I got two rackets now! ^^ But now, my love and i are facing a big challenge! The weather! It's been raining days and nights for like two days already! :( SAD! I miss the sunshine! I really wanna go out and play! So i'm really really really hoping that it won't rain later. Wanna go out stretch some muscles and sweat!! :D

Another thing, this Saturday i was supposed to go to Mount Singai for a retreat organized by my college's Christian Fellowship. But it has been put off to July. :( I was really anticipating for it! But never mind, July then. :) Yay!

Gosh, just received a call from Swinburne Debaters' Club. A debate is coming up, but i'm not so keen in joining anymore. Don't feel like going through those mentally stressed out moments again. :(

ARGH! And it started to rain! Again! :'(

Sigh.

Got my result slip.

The result is not so satisfying. I feel that i could do better if i was feeling better. If i wasn't feeling super groggy and dizzy because of the illness and the drug, everything would be better, so much better. Did so well for the other three papers... just that paper! :( it screwed up everything! :(

:(

But to look at the bright sight (for awhile) , i did so much more in that exam week. Got 2A and 1A-. :) At least, Mdm Angie's paper i got an A for her! :) And while everyone else was studying for exam that afternoon, i was in the school helping her to tidy the Pismp room. So i think it's considered very good already, for that paper.

The paper which pulled down everything and marked an ugly grade to my result, why oh why? :(

:(

2011!

Happy 2011!

I'm back to school again.
waking up early again.
driving my Pajero again.
playing tennis again!

:)

The last day of 2010

Wooot! Another year is going to end! 2010, another year of learning and growth. Life is all about making mistakes and learning from them. So, make more mistakes in 2011! XD

China trip. I haven't had the time to update on what's happened there and everything which i thought of and learnt there. However, the most important thing which i've learnt is the importance of family. All the things there could be great, but without family, it's really not much fun. Thank God for the snow, at least i've seen it. (traded it by getting a mild frostbite :p) Snow was exactly like the blended ice you get when you order for ABC. Hahaha. It felt good too when you got hit by an ice ball! I got to meet many new friends, many teachers. It's um, 60% enjoyable. HAHA! I really hope that this would be the last time i went to China. I really don't like it there, Kuching is the best! :)

Coming back home. Well, catching up with meet ups most of the time. I'm also trying to play as much tennis as possible. My love! :D I spent my Christmas at the beach together with my family, went swimming to burn the fat i gained while i was in China (winter + food + NO exercise). Finally i got to play tennis with daddy! It was a very good training and i really enjoyed it! However, dad's foot was hurt while playing with me. =/

2010 wasn't really a very happy and good year. Of course, it's not that bad too cuz indeed i learnt a lot of things. I went through many painful lessons in life, but those are what made us grow and mature. However, 2011 will be a better year, i'm sure! I finished my 1.5 years of Foundation year, embarking on my first degree year next year. The timetable for next year is quite free, so it means i could search for a part time job! I wanna save as much money as possible.

I can't wait to dive into the hectic school life again. But for next year, it would be slightly different, cuz i might have jobs to go for after/before lectures and more TENNIS! Yay! It gives me the happy feeling when i know that all my tennis buddies are coming back! :)

Delirious.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Man, this is so so sooo fun! Again again!

Ginko Leaves

I fly elegantly in the air like the Ginko leaves.

A sad clown.

Day 4 [Singapore]

Weather: Perfect sunny!

I woke up late! :'(
and so i couldn't go swimming, or else my swimsuit wouldn't be able to dry up before i leave tonight. *sobs* Anyway, i shouldn't go swimming too as now my arms muscles are kinda painful. I think i swam too much yesterday. I was doing breast stroke until, i really didn't have the energy to pull my arms in the water. Luckily i didn't persist, i might get drown due to tiredness. :P

So, instead of wasting my time doing nothing (or continue sleeping), i started packing. Hopefully, no more re-packing in the last minute! Okay, there's still one thing i would want to do before i leave Singapore. But i'm really not too sure if i should. =/

* * *

A sad clown.
such an irony.
or is he an imposter who hides himself behind the thick happy make-up?
or is he a hypocrite who tells the world to be happy,
yet can't help being sad himself?

Lesson # 3: Stop pretending.

Oh, i came across with that three words, and they made me ponder, so i just wrote it out for sharing. :)