A sad clown.

Day 4 [Singapore]

Weather: Perfect sunny!

I woke up late! :'(
and so i couldn't go swimming, or else my swimsuit wouldn't be able to dry up before i leave tonight. *sobs* Anyway, i shouldn't go swimming too as now my arms muscles are kinda painful. I think i swam too much yesterday. I was doing breast stroke until, i really didn't have the energy to pull my arms in the water. Luckily i didn't persist, i might get drown due to tiredness. :P

So, instead of wasting my time doing nothing (or continue sleeping), i started packing. Hopefully, no more re-packing in the last minute! Okay, there's still one thing i would want to do before i leave Singapore. But i'm really not too sure if i should. =/

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A sad clown.
such an irony.
or is he an imposter who hides himself behind the thick happy make-up?
or is he a hypocrite who tells the world to be happy,
yet can't help being sad himself?

Lesson # 3: Stop pretending.

Oh, i came across with that three words, and they made me ponder, so i just wrote it out for sharing. :)

Random :P

My bed for now.

:D

Dive into the pool.

Just feel like... diving into the pool.
Oh, they said we could cry freely in the pool. :)

Twisted and hurt.

Seriously.
It's drifted way too much.
I should get back on the track,
or i would miss another chance
to find myself back again.

It came knocking at your door
unexpectedly - should i open it
and embrace it even though it spells impossibility?
Why did it come anyway?

Things are often presented in a stark difference.
When these two totally different worlds meet,
it either creates sparks or it creates
nothing.

I once thought that i was quite good
and i had nothing to worry about.
But the truth revealed itself -
I'm worried about almost everything.

The rational mind tells me no
but my emotional heart tells me yes.
Twisted and hurt,
which one should i go for?

Writer's thought:
Well, i guess part of it is inspired by the Malay song, 'Isabella', which sings of a sad love story of two different worlds. It has a very strong melancholy element in it.

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

Happy
50th
Birthday!

To: The Awesome Superb Loving BEST-EST Dad

Happy Birthday! Thank you for everything! Thank you for always being very understanding. Thank you for bringing love to us. Thank you, for your presence in my live! Thank you, for being such a wonderful dad for this family! :)

I'm truly a blessed child!
Thank God for you.
Wish you happy always. :)

Love, Agnes.

Birthday Dinner at Sanga

I chose to be different.

Happy birthday!

I went out with a bunch of friends just now to Sanga (a japanese restaurant). It's been a while since our last outing. We had a lot to catch up with each other's life. And, i realized i've changed. I'm not sure how i have changed, i'm not too sure if it's a good thing or the opposite.

EAT . PRAY . LOVE

Elizabeth Gilbert's EAT PRAY LOVE.

I am inspired and so i feel like writing something really special for myself. I'm not too sure how long i will live, but i believe in living life to the fullest. Yes i know life can be very depressing at times, but that's life. Ups and downs. Sometimes, i will feel that i'm very strong and i could fight on and on; sometimes i just feel so weak that i would rather concede defeat. However, i am very blessed that i know who to seek for when i am weak. I am blessed, I am truly blessed. :)

We EAT, we PRAY, and we LOVE.
We ENJOY, we PLAY, and that's LIFE.

:)