Love hurts.

Love is not having or owning someone - that is possession.
Love is not afraid of losing the other person - that is fear.

LOVE IS PROTECTING the person from your dark sides and all the hurt that will crush that person into pieces which you could never ever be able to fix again. 

And this means no hiding, no lies.
This means overcoming your dark sides and be a good person.
This means doing the right things that will not hurt the other one.
This means always be honest, always be truthful.
 
All these show how much the other person means to you.


So don't ever say that you love someone if you can't even protect that person.

Hello 2013!

2012 has passed. 

2013 is here!

It would be too long if i were to reflect on the whole 2012, well, but one thing for sure, God has His reasons behind everything that happened! 

The first week of lectures made me feel like it has been 3 weeks already instead of 3 days! It was so tiring and packed! The lecture itself is in the morning, unless one or two afternoon classes. However, it's the practice after the lectures that really drained me out. This semester we will have to stage a drama as our coursework. That drama would be a very big event where we will also invite children, parents, and teachers outside the campus. Wow. :( In order to make sure that it will (it has to!) be a success, we are already preparing for it during the holidays before this. We gotta memorize scripts and prepare our costumes. And now, most of the afternoons i'd have to stay back for practice. 

Right now, i'm feeling that i might fall sick soon. Having sore throat today and this would be really bad as i need my voice! But i understand i have overworked myself in just these few days. Before lecture started, i was already busy tidying and moving things as i changed my study room's layout and i arranged all my documents, notes, files, and stuff. The study room is now better, more organized. However, there's still a bit more i need to tidy, but i haven't. As lecture started, i slept pass midnight every night, sometimes around 1am and woke up at 530am every morning. That's why i'm really tired. And Saturday is supposed to be a day to get enough rest and replenish my energy, but what happens to today? Tuition all day! The next tuition starts at 3pm.

What about my tennis? Swimming? Jogging? Fellowships? Tuitions?

Well, i guess the challenge for this semester will be how to manage my time smart. To have time for things i need to complete, work, sports, rest, friends, family, myself, and most importantly, God. 

One thing that i wanna thank God is i've started to do devotion every night! :))) I really want to maintain this spiritual connection with God cuz i know the busier i am, the more i need to talk to Him, constantly, everyday! i bought this book at Kinokuniya, and it is superb! It has an article or a story everyday about Christianity, then it has this place for me to write my response, my prayers and my praise. I really love it! "This Morning with God" by Jennifer Rothchild. I wanted to do in the morning but mornings are always rushing, so i am trying to make it a routine to always date and talk to God at night. :)

Get well soon, Aggy! :D

Believing is seeing!

"God is good all the time, even when it doesn't look like it."

Faith is a journey, a bumpy road at times where we embrace what we can't understand and believe what we can't see. Faith is like following an invisible thread. Trusting Him more today than you did yesterday. If you can't understand, just keep following. Though it may be dark now, you will see that eventually He has led you out of the hard times. 

Sorry for the disappearance for quite sometime. Ever since the trip, i haven't had time to really update this blog. There were a few times where i had the strong urge to sprinkle something on this blog but i forgot why it didn't happen. Anyway, holiday was awesome. Experienced many things, opened my eyes to many things i haven't been paying attention to before, and learned to treasure more things in life. Thank You, God, for this wonderful and meaningful holiday. :) I would definitely talk about my holidays here if i have the time. We'll see how it goes!

This is today's article summary. It was super enlightening and motivating! It's so easy to lose faith when we doubt, or when the situation seems doubting. Yet, it is very important to keep holding on to that invisible thread of faith - even when you can't see it, even when you can't see why you have to keep believing - that is exactly the only thing you should do when you doubt.

"Let us step into the darkness and reach out for the hand of God. The path of faith and darkness is so much safer than the one we would choose by sight." George MacDonald.

Believing is seeing.

Hello 2013! 

What a lifted spirit to kick-off the year! Woots!

God loves you and i and everyone! 

Holiday #11

天父啊！你名何其美，你荣耀彰显于天，
当我看你手所造的天，还有月亮和星宿。
我就说主我算什么，你竟顾念我，
叫我比天使微小一点，又赐我尊贵
荣耀为冠冕，派我掌管你所造的万物。

天父啊！你名何其美，你慈爱溢满天地，
当我看你手所造的地，还有花草和万兽。
我就说主我算什么，你竟顾念我，
我能为你做什么事，教我如何来，
回报你大爱，主啊，你名何其美在全地。

美丽又尊贵的大爱

看到如此绽炫美丽的夕阳，我看到这创造者的大能，恩惠和爱。不禁使这首优美的诗歌（取自大卫王的诗篇）在我脑海中，心怀中荡漾。

天父上帝的爱。。。如此美丽！如此尊贵！

我们也应该用一生来回报主的深厚大爱。

我们的天父上帝时时刻刻顾念我们，真的真的很爱我们。


P/s: 请包涵我这已 “生锈” 的中文。

Holiday #10

O Lord,
Thank You for Your love that keeps us going on through difficult moments in life.
we know that You see and You hear.
we cast all our anxieties on You.
we put all these, and everyone, every hearts in Your mighty hands
and we know, we believe You have Your own time.
Meanwhile, Lord please look after us,
pour Your abundant grace on us,
grant us strength and keep us going,
no matter how treacherous the journey is
no matter how faint the hope seems to be
we shall not grow weary.
Our strength comes from You;
our hope is found in You.
Lord, remind us, constantly remind us that You are always here,
watching, listening...
You will never leave us or forsake us.
We believe in You,
we know there's always hope,
we know Your help is on the way.
Comfort them with your mighty love and wipe their tears.
Deliver those who are in pain, Lord.
Strengthen their hearts Lord so that they may not turn to despair.
we trust in You.
we trust in You, our Lord.
In the name of Jesus Christ, AMEN.

Holiday #9

This song keeps playing in my mind now...

Everybody wants to be loved
every once in a while
we all need someone to hold on to
just like a helpless child
yeah
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright

it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
and like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming

you can look for a lifetime
you can love for a day
you can think you got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away
yeah
then you look in my eyes
and i have it all
once again

it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
just like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming

didn't know i was lost
til you found me
uh huh
didn't know i was blind
but now i see
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been searching for

oh been a long long highway and
now i see
ooo loves been a long time
ooo been a long time
loves been a long time coming

Holiday #8

Sigh.

I let my frustrations out on people who have nothing to do with it,
yet are the closest to me.
I'm sorry.