Answers.

2011 is coming to the end. This semester has been a very special semester, with many achievements, trials, experiences, stressful weeks, disappointments, downfalls, firsts, happy moments, sweet moments, heart-aching moments... Many things to say about this semester, and this whole year... However, i think i won't write it out here, it's just simply too much to share here.

After all these, i just thought that maybe i was in a rush, in many things.

And maybe sometimes, i thought too much for other people (or, i cared too much how other people would think) that i made some decisions which go against my own will, and in the end, i messed things up. When i wanted to make up for everything, it's just a little bit too late. Missed out the chance. And no matter how hard i try, it's just not meant to be.

I'm still searching for answers.
Many answers...
to my unanswered questions.

Should i leave it,
or should i save it?

Best of Me

I was made the wrong way.
Won't you do me the right way?
Where you gonna be tonight?
Cuz I won't stay too long.

Maybe you're the light for me,
When you talk to me it strikes me.
Won't somebody help me?
Cuz I don't feel too strong.

Was there something that I said?
Was there something that I did?
Or the combination I both that did me end?

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along,
Though it's not your favorite song.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say.
You know that some of us spin again,
When you do you need a friend.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me.
And I hate the thought finally been erased.
Baby that's the best of me.

Everything's behind you,
But the whole place signs besides you.
Living in the moment.
Have I wasted all your time?

Was there something that I said?
Was there something that I did?
Or the combination I both that did me end?

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along,
Though it's not your favorite song.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say.
You know that some of us spin again,
When you do you need a friend.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me,
And I hate the thought finally been erased.
Baby that's the best of me.
Baby that's the best of me.

You know I'm hoping you'll sing along,
Though it's not your favorite song.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say.
You know that someone those spin again,
When you do you need a friend.
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me.
And I hate the thought finally been erased.
Baby that's the best of me.

- Best of Me by Daniel Powter -


Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left to say
Don't wanna be there when there's nothing left for me

For you...

What Every Woman Should Know

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without; ruining the friendship...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and when to walk away...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but it's over..
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW....
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .
whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table.. or a charming Inn in the woods.... when her soul needs soothing...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
What she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...
~ Pamela Redmond Satran

Learn to be independent...

When you are sad,
squat down and hug yourself...
You gotta learn to love yourself first now...
No one will always be there for you...

难过的时候就蹲下来，抱抱自己。
要学会自己先疼自己。

Running Away.

Where can i go from your Spirit?
Where can i flee from your presence?
If i go up to the heavens, you are there;
if i make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If i rise on the wings of the dawn,
if i settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

If i say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

Psalm 139:7-12

Don't we all feel like running away at times? When troubles arise and when hard times strike us, we feel weak, powerless, devastated... Somehow, our faith shrinks drastically, courage deserts us, and everything we want to hold on tight is falling apart. The first instinct is to run away... run far far away from all these.

Running away from problems, running away from facing them......running away from God.

Another sleepless night. Nonetheless, praise the Lord! Recently, sleepless nights would be longer dates with God. :) Instead of wasting time to toss and turn in the bed, instead of staring into the dark and brood over the things which bug me, why not take time to talk and listen to God?

I tried to run away... but it led me to nowhere. Problems are not solved, instead, worries, anxieties, frustrations increased. Running away is not the way to solve any problem you face. God is always with everyone of us. We can tell Him our problems, our anxieties, and everything! How wonderful it is that our Father knows us well - every move, every thought - sometimes He knows even better than us! Like how King David wrote in Psalm 139:1-4. Our Father knows us COMPLETELY. So, why run away?

Everywhere we go, everything we do, every hardship we endure, God is watching over us. No matter how upset we are, no matter how far we run away from Him, He will still be there. He will be reaching out His hand, waiting for us to hold His hand so that He can guide us through. Even when you think it's too dark for you, too impossible for you; to God, it's bright with hope, it's possible! So, why run away?

Stop running away.
Turn to God,
hold His hand,
and trust in Him.

God bless you all! :)

Happiness.

'No one owes you your happiness. No one is responsible for your happiness.
Happiness is your choice.' (Mdm Angie, 2010)

♥

Be Still

'Be still, and know that I am God.' Psalm 46:10

BE STILL. He is God. God is in control. God is with you, God is walking with you through all the pain that you have to endure. God is fighting with you when challenges come thrashing down. God covers you and protects you when you feel scared. God holds your hand when you feel unsure and doubtful. There's nothing impossible in God. He is the God who gives and takes away. God knows what He is doing. God has His plans and His own timing. Overcome your fears, cast away your anxieties, and believe in Him, because He is GOD.