Holiday #10

O Lord,
Thank You for Your love that keeps us going on through difficult moments in life.
we know that You see and You hear.
we cast all our anxieties on You.
we put all these, and everyone, every hearts in Your mighty hands
and we know, we believe You have Your own time.
Meanwhile, Lord please look after us,
pour Your abundant grace on us,
grant us strength and keep us going,
no matter how treacherous the journey is
no matter how faint the hope seems to be
we shall not grow weary.
Our strength comes from You;
our hope is found in You.
Lord, remind us, constantly remind us that You are always here,
watching, listening...
You will never leave us or forsake us.
We believe in You,
we know there's always hope,
we know Your help is on the way.
Comfort them with your mighty love and wipe their tears.
Deliver those who are in pain, Lord.
Strengthen their hearts Lord so that they may not turn to despair.
we trust in You.
we trust in You, our Lord.
In the name of Jesus Christ, AMEN.

Holiday #9

This song keeps playing in my mind now...

Everybody wants to be loved
every once in a while
we all need someone to hold on to
just like a helpless child
yeah
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright

it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
and like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming

you can look for a lifetime
you can love for a day
you can think you got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away
yeah
then you look in my eyes
and i have it all
once again

it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
just like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming

didn't know i was lost
til you found me
uh huh
didn't know i was blind
but now i see
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been searching for

oh been a long long highway and
now i see
ooo loves been a long time
ooo been a long time
loves been a long time coming

Holiday #8

Sigh.

I let my frustrations out on people who have nothing to do with it,
yet are the closest to me.
I'm sorry.

Holiday #7

Too many things i wanted to write.
Too many reasons i think i shouldnt write.

Thinking of some funny things about life and people.

Holiday #6

lies.

Holiday #5

I can't believe i was down with fever and bad sore throat and now flu! What a great combo to kick start my holiday? haha. The worst thing (and the quite ironic fact) is that i can't take medicine or sweat to recover from my fever. Well, cuz i am still doing my patch test. This fever was indeed totally self-recovery!! (Now who says we must see a doctor, or take medicine?) 

Normally i don't take medicine too, but i would wrap myself in thick blanket and get myself to sweat and eventually i would feel better. However, this time round, due to the patch test, i was told i cannot sweat. And i had to sleep with my back on top. Torturing. I ended up waking up with my rib bones in pain and feeling like they would break anytime soon. In order to fight the coldness, i wrapped my legs and arms with blanket, turned on the fan so that my back won't sweat. And so i ended up sweating for my limbs, and not on my back...? I wondered if it really had worked that way. haha! (By the way, the fan was the culprit why i am now down with flu after fever was gone.)

Aaaah, just feel so sick. To add on to that, suddenly got a heavy dose of nostalgic feeling.. sigh. It's like cuz holidays have given me more time to think, to reflect on my life... and there it led me to the past and the shadows i can't seem to move on from... 

Decisions, people, expectations...

Would it upset you if that's the decision i would choose in the end?

Would you think i'm selfish?

Holiday #4

12.11.12

As for today... Nothing much happened, but many things struck my mind. Suddenly feel tensed. I guess this holiday is again not for me to enjoy. :( I went to hospital for patch test and now i have patches sticking on my back. The doctor said no sports for these five days. Boo-hoo!

And very recently, i just received a news. DEEP SIGH. I hope, and i really really pray that everything will be fine. God will take care of all right? 

Tomorrow, i am supposed to attend some Christian teachers' sharing at a pastor's office in the morning. However, i have an emergency duty which i offer to take it myself and it clashes with the sharing. I feel torn between two decisions. I know, first is i have promised i would go and they seemed so anticipated for the sharing tomorrow. But what suddenly held me back is i need to be somewhere else, with someone tomorrow morning. :( It's important, very important. Actually i might still have another one with my lecturers and Fiona tomorrow morning for our drama t-shirts. However, that one i can just let Fiona handle it as it is not a very big concern. I texted the pastor to inform him i can't make it tomorrow, but until now i still receive no reply. They must be very disappointed with me right now. 

Then, there are also more tuition classes coming. I really don't know if i could handle it but i really need to work.

Somehow everything just looks complicated to me today. :(

Father God, calm my heart.